I have failed, again.
I feel like my insides
are eating each other out
like a sickening feeling
of being angry at yourself
for being this way
but also knowing that
there are things
you cannot control.

I have failed, again.
I feel like my brain
is going to explode
at any moment
and all I can do
is stare blankly
while the grey matter
scatters to the floor.

I have failed, again.
I feel like I want to destroy myself
but no amount of physical pain
can ever match what I truly feel
inside my beating heart
inside my stupid brain
and inside every vein
and artery in my body.

I have failed, again.
I feel like I want to disappear
because I am nothing
but a disappointment
to everyone that truly knows me
for they know I can do better
and I can do better than this, really
just not now, not today.

I have failed, again.
I hope tomorrow's the day
that I'll finally succeed.