I taste blood as I bite my lip too hard, I swear I can even smell it; I see it on the napkin as I dab at it and I hear it as my heart pumps more through my veins. It feels slick in my fingers as I graze over The wound I self-inflicted And the notion of it surrounding me Is more or less intoxicating. It drips down my chin, Like a tear might, And I’ll admit the burning pain Created a mixture of the two. I don’t want you to think me mad, I am just passionately mesmerized At this sick wonder— Sick, as in it’s making me die. I have a terminal disease And this is how I cope You wouldn’t understand my fascination Of the death that flows inside me.
I just want to clearly point out I am not terminally ill and that this piece is fictional. However, I do know several people I love who have been threatened and even died from illnesses related to blood and it does run in the family.