your words are just words. I was right, it is all just talk:
you had no intention to take me
I gave myself up completely, I completely gave myself
to you, I said I would, body and soul only to be met with
lack of care, lack of drive for us, lack of intention, maybe even
being pulled along a string: just fluffy words, just words that
this will be my silence, my silent thoughts.
once again, being denied devotion in my life. being denied giving my love, my devotion, my commitment, because others had no care for me,
no intention for me, no want for me. when the moment could have been ours, in OUR hands, in our control, it no longer is. and I'm the one most hurt. as always.
I'm always the one who loves the most. who loves more. who would do anything for the other. but never me.