Drinking with the devil's thirst Smoking the cowboys dirt Laughing much too loud Walking round the next day in my ex's stolen underwear Bloodshot eyes and ready for another round
I was chaos and storms I was weather worn But inside I was holding me together With the too loud music and too much fake smiles I was something too behold
I wonder what you saw When you looked at me
I was told you like to fix things And to you I'd be the ultimate challenge with all my broken dreams I told you to leave well enough alone That I'm putting myself back together on my own You heeded my warnings not
You looked at me as though I was all you saw And into my heart and life you clawed You spoke to me through my favourite songs Made me feel like to you alone I belonged You said you never felt this way and that I was your safe place
I wonder now When I look at you
How hard it must've been For you to pretend you're all in How you must've hated every moment we touched Though how well you did fake lust I shudder to recall
How difficult for you to fake those looks All your tricks, you said you learned from books Your romantic ramblings must've been so tiring You made me feel like I was dying How hard was it for you, I wonder
You faked it all so convincingly Everyone believed it, even me I thought I met my other half While you thought you were smart I hope someday I'll find it funny
For all your great intentions you forgot About what happens at the end, we both lost You lost a friend, I a lover You quickly went back to your other And I am back at the start
So your pretty words didn't fix me like you hoped I was doing fine, I would've coped Just fine without your interference Your intentions were careless You broke another piece off me
For all your good intentions, you trying to show me how good it can be, and wanting to fix me, I fell in love with you, how could I not? You tried so hard to make me. And then you left and said you lied about it all. You broke me a little more