I've been counting
It's been roughly I'd say 64 days since I thought of you
Let's just say this is my relapse
Ha..
I mean when I think of it now I thought of you at least once daily during those 64 days
To remember to not remember your face
To remember to remind myself not to try to remember your voice
To remember to remind myself that talking and thinking about you wouldn't bring you back
I guess this was the ****** of my relapse on the negative scale
But it's alright I'll start fresh at exactly midnight
And I'll remember to remind myself not to remember the last relapse
You would second guess my ability to remember and slip a little reminder in my phone and just to be safe you'd stick a note on the refrigerator door
Your favorite food was leftovers
Your reason was something poetic like you enjoyed the ability to make use of the forgotten scraps of a previous nights meal
Stop.
Reset.
Reset why?
Reset to remember to forget that when I think I hear your voice that it's just my mind playing tricks on me
Reset to remember that staring at our picture won't open the vortex to **** me back in time
Reset to forget you
****
Reset you
reset you
reset you
Reset y-****
Deep breath
Separate myself
Lick a finger and divide the pages stuck together
This is a new page.
I will pick up the pencil and write
Day 1 of a clear head