There's a hole
in the pit
of the abyss
that sits
tucked under my lungs
and below my breath
But it's leaking
and seeping
it's black stinking
****
into my veins
corrupting my brains
until all I taste is sour disappointment
and all I feel is fear
dripping up my spine
into my ear
where there's always ringing
a quiet whispering
always giving
me
a keen sense
of my unwanted loneliness
I sip swallow spit the sickening knot of jealousy
because they confuse anxiety
with insanity
But I know there's something wrong
Doubt weakens my bones and I cannot move on
I see nothing around me
That's what got me here in the first place