you are my comfort
when he is far away from me
further away than i would care to have him

you are the warmth in my body
when he brings me coldness
spreading to individual cells throughout me
filling me
making me whole

you are the kindness
when his heart is cruel
too cruel for me to palate most days

you are the light
when he is dark
illuminating me completely

i wish i could give myself to you fully

i wish he didn't hold such a part of me