The ice cream van Has today reached The melancholic realisation That the only kids who Chase clocks for Mr Whippy And lick the exhaust fumes In nostalgia Are the kids who are not kids But who prematurely aged themselves With lipstick kisses And cigarettes Lowered themselves into nooses Of sweet-sixteenths From the age of six
We are a generation of Peter Pan inversions We ran ashore And beached ourselves Beyond the lure Of Neverland We are a generation of Failed cloud-catchers Aspiring rainbow-clinchers Secretly slipping our hands Back into a dead air Of former innocence In the hope we’ll be able to Retrieve the pieces we left there We queue and scramble Like gulls for Inches we can claw back Preserving our age in Wafer cones And bleeding snows That glue between our fingers Each 99 flake Is a time machine Which we spin like a music box And wait for the rewind Copper coins and sea stains And we hope we’ll find Some of the things we lost But we cannot predict or realign The atoms or twist ourselves Back into them So we sit and watch The incorruptibility we once possessed Perished Sexualised Corrupted Pool in the March drizzle Someone once said That youth was a process Of being torn in half By the past that pulls you back And the future that tempts you Being too big and yet too small Longing but fearing But an ice cream van tells me That youth is a process Of trying not to drown yourself In what you’ve never had And when that ice cream van tells me to MIND THAT CHILD I can’t help projecting echoes Of its wisdom On to all who pass me by Mind that childhood Before there’s nothing left to mind
Three separate events today triggered this. Mainly the 3rd.
1) The unanimous decision that (when we finally get there) we want to celebrate the end of our education with a water fight and a bouncy castle on the school field. Because really we're searching for things we should never have disposed of. We never wanted yearbooks or proms of high heals or hoodies... 2) A discussion about the way we live in a world that is expiring itself in a bid to live fast and young and beautiful and ****... 3) An ice cream van that parked out the back of my school today and the crowd of teenagers that flocked to it...