I'm so tempted to ask you
And see your reaction
What you will do
All I want is to cry
Always thinking silently
Wondering what it's like to die
I've had this urge to ask you
If I left this terrible place
What would you do?

Would you scream to the heavens so loud there was no sound
Constantly begging for the world to return what was rightfully yours
Would you fumble about, always searching when I'm no longer around
Visually tearing apart crowds and stopping to open all the doors

I won't ask you
For I fear the answer
Of what you might do
I still want to cry
It's not quite my time
So I tell a true lie
When you ask what's on my mind
That you're there with me
In my head, keeping me going
It's true when I say I'm happy
When my world starts slowing
You're always there
Even when you're not
As I begin to stare
Sorting through my thoughts
I won't leave this beautiful place
Instead, I'll always be here for you

I would miss the way your smile warmed my heart inside-out
Longing to be dangerously close to you every chance I am able
I would miss the times you would refuse to leave, never without
Having me at your side to keep both our worlds bright and stable

I now know what to do
but only for you