Memories of you. All fear and pain. The thought of which I can’t explain. For years, I’d hoped I was insane But nightmarish thoughts have left me stained.
The thoughts I have must be obscene. I try to keep my mind so clean But what do all these memories mean? What are these horrid things I’ve seen?
Can it all just be a bad dream? Could I have suffered such an extreme? I think of it, and want to scream Please, let it all just be a dream.
I adjust my ways, hoping for change Trying to avoid the strange Using my time to rearrange To keep my thoughts inside my brain
Nothing can ever be the same Not since the day I learned your name My already fragile, broken frame Is now destroyed. Completely lame.
Try as I may, I can’t erase The years you took, I can’t replace I close my eyes and see your face I’m forever behind in this race
I tried to share, and was ignored My tears and my expression out I poured But you were not shown the door Like I had so been hoping for
So I remain, still to this day A frail shell of your decay And will never fully get away But I get stronger every day