Why does it take death to miss something or someone? When I reach the end of my days I dont want to have " I should have" at the last breath I take. I want to look back and smile because of the memories and chances I took. Life should not be full of mistakes and regret.. but it is. How else do you learn? You had to make those to bad choices to see what is really in front of you. I want to know at the end of my days that I loved the deepest I could with the one who truly means the most to me, and that might not necessarily be a woman either. My father is my biggest inspiration and he know the love I carry for him is far greater then any woman I could give my heart to. That being said many have come close but I feel as though I had to make mistakes along the way and those women have gone to other, more suitable men. Life isnt a game or race to money and fame, its the journey towards love and the pursuit of our happiness.  When I reach the end of my days I should not have why at my lips or what if that girl and I...." I should have remember old man, the time of that beautiful woman at that sunset? You made a fool out of your self when you poured your little heart out to that girl who was out of your league, and she didnt care she was ready to say yes to you when you got down on bended knee, not the speech of love that followed." Then when that memory fades and the smile on my old man face is immortalized as I slip into cold death, ill have lived my journey into whatever kingdom I have made that lies ahead of me.