I wanted to write a poem And name it "Baby Carrots"
I was going to write about how your favorite band was Pink Floyd, and how I see your face in the surface of the swimming pool behind your house.
I was going to write about the bus seats with burn marks and scratches in the vinyl that you left in the backs.
I was going to write about your faded red hair and how everyone laughed, including you.
I was going to write about your funeral.
I was going to write about your bedroom door and how when I look at it I think, that for maybe a second, you're sitting in there, fixing a computer.
I was going to write about the empty space in the room when everyone's together aside from you.
I decided to let you rest. You need your sleep. I hope some day, if there is some world after all of this, I see you again.
Just in case I don't,
I wanted to write a poem.
I miss you, man. I hope you heard everything I said in the shower. Everything feels different. Everything's just incomplete and will never be whole again. I don't want to fill the spaces you left. I just want it to not feel so wrong. In memory of Nick Marschner. 1996-2014.