To the crushing of bones when you implode; my stubborn skull was no match for the concrete.
I flew face first- now I am ground into dirt, or the dirt is ground into me wherever I’m bleeding.
I can’t clean these wounds sober. this girl? you won't know her.
my jaw is popping- is there any chance of that stopping soon? The moon is closing in on the sun, threatening to collide and I've grown wearing of hiding in the night. I'd just like some medical attention.
My knees, my knees... I forgot to mention they're all ******; I don't have the money to call off for a few days.
can I sleep on my face? my pain is evidence of my shame- these wounds just my physical disgrace.
I'll regain coherency at a quarter till three with a swollen, puffy face and vinegar in my veins.
just add it to the list of blundering strains maybe some time in the future I’ll be able to worry about it again.
it never ends.
my new lamp, shattered my clean sheets dirtied and tattered.
my left ear is buzzing- everything has gone fuzzy and my head is numb and throbbing.
maybe I’ll sleep well tonight, and my nightmares will find me without any fight left in my dried out bones and pseudo studio home.
written in the late summer as an ode to my destructive behavior and my continual crashes that never seemed to stop because I would keep getting back on my bike and my board. Thankfully I have slowed down now that there is snow but the pain still remains at times.