you know, I thought I'd feel something
anything really
anger, sadness, rage...
but I just feel numb
i don't think it's because of you or what you've done
i think it's because i've felt so much
you made me go through too much

just like a water bottle
when you fill it up with too many things
it starts to empty itself
and that's where i am

emptying myself
from all the tears i've cried
from all the nights of fears
where the monsters weren't under my bed
but they were tucking me in
from all the days i'd curse the moment i met you
from all the moments you ever made me feel like i wasn't special

I wasn't unique
That I wouldn't find someone that would wake up by my side
That I would spend the rest of my days by myself if I didn't try to change

you know, I used to be scared of that
but now, it's all I want
I want to spend some time alone
some time to think,
to pick up the pieces
that you effortlessly smashed on the ground

so here i am.
planting my inner garden
and decorating my own soul