Sat I next to the window of the car

Peering out of it into the clouds,

As my mind went a bit too far

Heard I him in the rain sounds.


The engine roared and the road started

With me in the back seat;

Tip- tap, peter-pat the drops imparted

The knowledge of his lost heat.


The music played in my periphery

Reminding of a time when,

‘Him’ and ‘me’ were a perfect ‘we’

-a love that was truly forsaken.


Every lyric that poured in

Synced with the sky’s song,

The nature was witnessing

How he left me alone in this throng.


From the first time we met to the last time he held my hand,

Our first kiss to the last time we slept,

All those moments from our dreamland

Came back to me as the heaven wept.


The drops on the window drew lines of lament

And my vision turned blurry,

Because our story was in fragments;

-the one that ended up in a hurry.


He threw himself down the cleft

Giving birth to a tragedy,

And now, all I have are words left

Of us, the rain and our past poetry.

and as the world stood lit
on the terrace did i sit
admiring how darkness
vanished behind the bright
only to see the night confess
it's lust for the light-
"as in the dark stays hidden
like a ***** secret we remain forbidden,
his hands on my hips
his mouth on my lips
he pushes me into the wall
and makes me moan in the abandoned hall
for i melt under his sheer energy
engaging in an ****
letting him pull my hair and bite my tongue
then caressing the spot where it stung
he makes me crave him to the core
after him nothing feels like before
and now that it has come to an end
where black and white both blend
i scream in the gray
as he's gone his own way
and all i am left with are hickeys on my neck
rest everything is free of any speck"
from dusk till dawn
i willingly become his pawn
and now when the day shines
light forgets his faithful night

you've broken my heart into pieces you can't count
left me bleeding on the floor alone with my shouts
yet you never looked back or felt a flicker of remorse
and carried on with your little life while i was at war
you can't love? but i know that you can, just not me
yet you lied to my face as if i will never be able to see
and even today you go on thinking you've done us both a favour
but let me tell you oh "demigod" i am not just another flavour for you to savour
you made me feel small because i had emotions, because i cared
putting up with everything because instead of leaving, i wanted to stay
what for? for you tell me that my personality won't fit?
well you knew who i was from the very beginning and that didn't stop you from doing ****
so now you're going and telling people that i was the problem with my issues
but you know exactly what you've done and that is discarded me like a used tissue
yet here i am stronger than ever before
because my heart's pure and full of love and more
i am not ashamed of going all in or feeling what i felt for you
in this fake *** world full of lies i will still strive to be true
you can go find happiness in others and think what you did was right
but in the end all you did was shirked away and gave up on us without a fight
if counting my flaws helps you live with yourself, then i am glad
because i know, i will find my solace after months of being sad
and one day when i will look back, i won't feel anything at all
because damaged people like me know the best how to get up after we fall

I'm not bad; Maybe just not good enough yet
I'm not sad; Maybe just not happy enough yet
I'm not weak; Maybe just not strong enough yet
I'm not bleak; Maybe just not warm enough yet
I'm not a failure; Maybe just not successful enough yet
I'm not a wailer; Maybe just not joyful enough yet
I'm not sick; Maybe just not healthy enough yet
I'm not maverick; Maybe just not puppet enough yet
I'm not a bullet; Maybe just not safe enough yet
I'm not a poet; Maybe just not sane enough yet