Things feel heavy right now and
my body wants to be free
I met you and then things took a new turn
I began to see through new eyes

I take host within the body
of those I grow new love for
the eyes of lovers are my identity
I am fluid now and can see my unease

I do not understand how
to carry the weight of
all these eyes at once

but I did

Now I can feel
That I loved them all
not one the same
yet each made my heart twist

My body is too small

Don't pretend to be knowledgeable
about that which you do not understand.

It's really annoying
and it's akin to misinformation.

Plus, anyone who knows a **** thing can see through your *******-
and you can't ******* a bullshitter.

Cold ocean crashing
Windy beach reacting.
The frozen rain pelts,
Making indents in the sand.

Collective ***** compensate
For the hills they hate,
The foam that catches their eyes.
Seaweed washed up ashore.

Clanking clouds condemn
Ecstasies of the hymn
Sung once amongst the rowboats
That now are lost at sea.

i guess i thought that i could learn how to drink away this lump in my throat

movies always taught me that when i turned 18, i would start shedding my skin and breaking down my walls but i didn't have any walls to tear down.
so i tried my hardest at age 18 to build them up, with the only things i had - boxes of matches
left over from burning down so many bridges

all because of some pieces of twisted metal,
i had to reteach myself how to drive.
and now i'm always 5 under the speed limit
i stop at every stop sign
no matter how angry i get

no one ever told me whether or not boxes of matches float
or why my neighborhood always looked so dark
and made me curl up like a dead spider

so now i stick my head in the freezer,
so i can get used to the feeling of my thoughts being so cold

now i kiss people just so we don't have to talk.