I had another dream of you
The bane of my existence

We had become friends again
And even in my dream state I knew what that meant

It meant I would love you again
In such a way that I would break every ounce of my own heart to do

I was so little when we met
And so naive
I believed we would be like a romance movie

Now I know better
And still my subconscious betrays me.

I like to believe in a astrology
And no not the daily horoscopes
But our signs and their effects

You were a cancer,
And in a way a cancer on my soul

Your emotions always drowned all of mine

You could never quite make up your mind about us

One day you wanted me to be your wife

And another day a stranger

In the end one of those happened

You're just a memory
Imprinted on my soul

Good for me or not.

hey you
we haven't really talked
in a while
which is funny because
i've memorized every inch of your profile
the softness of your deep eyes
that you hate so much
that i sometimes hate too
lately i just feel so far away from you
pull and tug
tug and pull
why won't you just let me
make your heart full?

For someone who has been my muse for years and years

You've made so many of my own words leave a bitter taste on my tongue.

You were the first person to tell me they loved me

And the first person to make feel worthless.