it was finally here staring at me
the opposite of oblivion
it smiled and said “i told you so”
the light
the light at the end.... though i know i have more to travel
i can’t help but appreciate every single thing up until now
nothing is perfect but it’s finally worth it
i’ve never felt the calmness so clear
it resonates with me in each sunset, each breath, and smile
it’s my motivation when all i have left are miles
i used to think i couldn’t go on
but life has showed me being courageous has its perks
i’ve grown from the dirt where they left me for dead
my petals are finally unraveling
the moonlight shines different than the sun when you’re not consumed
life was once a tragedy
now i can take a deep breath and genuinely express gratitude
the arrival came a few days ago
it’s there everywhere i turn
reminding me that i finally made it

pride and self love, they’re similar aren’t they?
except one has a little more ego than the other

help me to believe in love again
help me to accept the idea that your heart can burn for someone
it can leave you feeling like the ground is the sky and i can’t be without it
these days i’d rather be alone
and i find comfort in the inevitable
but maybe that’s the greatest love i have ever known
loving myself enough to let myself grow

resonance...
i feel it in my bones
do you feel it in your soul?
i’m detoxing from a nightmare that happened in a moment that no longer exists
when i experience bliss i make sure to loosen fists
the other part of me that i held dear for so long is fading along with the rest of our song
i’ll be gone before dawn
i’ve transitioned into the queen and you’re still playing as a pawn
i only let certain dates resonate
and i’ll reciprocate the conversation
i’ll look you in the eyes and smile and tell you everything that comes to mind
happiness refined
i can always tell when they’re falling in love cause they don’t ever want leave
i like to make you laugh
as we seep into the cracks
reality becomes something i’ve never seen before
i’ve become an anchor to silver linings
and i live life making sure you can’t find me
i’m trying to contain the love that wants to overflow in the spots i seal so tightly
cause i promise that with just one kiss
i can’t make you forget me

it’s only a matter of time
until this second collapses into the next
an unknown abyss peaks it’s way into the intricacy we all measure
it was my pleasure to bestow it on to you
my vision is captured when the light is leaking through
somedays i wish i could turn back the clock
some days i wish i could make it stop
but majority of my days i sit here in gratitude
because i never thought i’d make it this far
the world at large in my backyard
i stare at the fickle waves and sway with their motions
i realize who i’ve become i’ve grown a shell of patience thicker than the ocean
i’ve learned to cradle the unknown and coax it gently and sing it to sleep
i have everything i ever needed and i know that’s enough to feel free
i don’t know why emptiness still tugs at me
it’s temporary like the phases of the moon
so i stay hopeful and steer clear of the preconceived doom
i’ll draw my name in the sand every time i flash a smile toward the open sea
it’s always been the little
things that made my heart feel like it wants to bleed
empty your pockets and dismantle the creed
fill your eyes with all the lips which mouthed they were sorry
i’m always gonna say i’m fine because i was built to coincide
it’s only a matter of time until all that’s left is my atoms
i’m the type of star catcher nobody can seem to fathom
it’s all an illusion anyway
it only matters if you let it

i remember the night it was supposed to snow
you called me on the phone
and we stayed up all night exchanging our thoughts as we waited for the first flake to drop
some nights i miss your voice and the times you’d call me in the middle of the night drunk at a bar just to see how i was doing
i could smell the liquor through the phone
i wish i’d let you kiss me that night but for some reason i didn’t let you
we drove all around in the night and i showed you my old house where i lived for not too long
you kept trying to make me laugh so you wouldn’t come off too strong
you told me about how your brother died
and i tried you keep you from crying
you kept grasping my fingers when silence fell in my car windows and started every sentence with my name
we went back and forth about the tragedies in our lives but didn’t play the blame game
we smoked a little bit and i parked my car not too far from where you slept
i wonder if that night is something that you kept
not with you always but from time to time
you kissed my cheek goodnight and called me the next morning
i can’t say i miss you
i wish we could’ve stayed friends
i think i should apologize
it’s always good to make amends
or maybe not
farewell urban

i used to hate my eyes
because all of the tears i let them cry
now i look at my chocolate pools of wonder
and see myself in the ones i love
i used to not be able to look people in the eyes
fearful of the second that they might figure me out
but i’m a lifelong mystery that i have yet to crack
so i stare into the eyes of strangers until they become intimated
when the sunlight hits just right
i promise they turn into a *** of gold
can you see my soul?
behold, i got love for everyone who’s ever admired my eyes
windows to the soul make you enter a new paradigm
and i got time
my eyes have this habit of making you fall in love with me
you might wanna close them for the mean time
the underlying of my iris has memories from many moons ago
i know i’m kinda eerie after four beers
unless you wanna get out of here?
then i can be sweet
but i promise i won’t sweep you off your feet
i’m retired
they say not to play with fire but i’m a fire sign
so ill burn until there’s no more rhymes
i’m a catalyst for your pain
she won’t ever make you feel free
my eyes they’ve seen many lives
they reflect my soul in the ways i create
that’s something only a few of us can relate to
some of us see bright but still end up blind