Black holes,
where the windows to her Soul,
used to be.

The night I met my Soul spark, O he was sucha cosmic twin flame to see. Stared into sky eyes that left me not knowing what to do. Words are found speechless and my breath I tried to catch as my Soul spark laid flickering by candle light is where we first met. Time stopped around us as we glowed in our own flame's light and gave me a new found meaning to love at it's very first sight. His skin draped over beautifully to the light body inside and I traced my fingertips over him to feel that his felt just like mine. We danced our first waltz, something of our very own flow and had me levitating towards the ceiling like a light-diamond rainbow. Waited so long to hold my Soul spark that now it feels like a dream. Our moment came and went so quickly like a shooting star you almost didn't see.

The sidewalks then blend
When each thought of you begin

Create to emulate the light that hides inside
Show your true self
And no longer let the Glow subside
I see this in you
And you shall falter no more
For the ways of the wicked have Karmic flaws under their belts
Deceiving and perceiving thinking its only a dream they felt
But I know the truth
Yes I know all too well
In the consumption of your Soul which has quite a story of it's own to tell
And I will forever listen to the Tale of the Tell Tall Heart
To make you realize Darling
We have never been far apart
Always right here in the space of your chest that collects the dusted memories
Even the ones we didn't know we'd make yet
And all the suffering and all the pain I lived through for you
Just to catch a glimpse of those Ocean eyes again
And sparked my light so I could show you the way
And in turn help you with this Karmic debt you must pay
And in accordance to this tab of past lives and present
Well we lived through all of them Darling
I don't want to know a life that doesn't

It's hard being in love with the bird who always flies away
Sometimes he comes back but refuses to make a nest long enough to stay

What if our hands did attach?
Like you said when your hand was in mine.
"If we squeeze hard enough maybe we'll become attached
and when I get on the plane we'll say,
'We're attached, see. You can't separate us."
What if our hands did attach?
At the moment you laced my fingers, as if that was that.

Take my tattered wings and learn how to fly
Reach the cosmos, past the sky
Go to the moon
Take a dip in sparkled specks of space
No place like this
In the mist I'll sit and wait
In four walled rooms with no ceilings attached
Like endless hallways with wallpapers that don't match
Relax and float down stream on Neptune's rings
Sipping moon beams
Snorting moon dust
Huffing moon musk
Feeling reborn
But stuck in the middle, the cusp

Your body is the temple I worship at,
your soul is the river in which I bathe, uncovering of your flowering mind of wondering that delicately hide away. Glistening in it's cave,
your eyes are the windows
that open for me.
Teleporting on a fresh flowing breeze,
one minute I'm earthly plane incarnate and in the next,
out of body celestial sea.

We became like shoelaces
Bodies intertwined at the seams
But when I untangled from your arms
It was like arising from the sweetest dream

I am the problem with no solution
And I feel deeply I shall stay this way until my physical departure.
But with problems you see,
I am just like any other.
Too cowardly to face the truth
And too bashful to say "**** it." and start all over again.
No that is my problem.
And maybe some day the sum will strike me right in the face
Like times when you're tripping off hallucinogens and suddenly it's resolved.
Why was it so difficult in the first place?
That's the problem...Nobody really knows.

you were always with me so now i know you are always with me.

Dance to me.
Not for me, but for yourself.
Euphoric undertones sweep over your brow.
And this moment very, Infinite.
This is what you have been waiting for.
You have Arrived.

I've never been in love before
So if you please, I'd like to settle the score
O the material things of course you can have them back
They are of no use to me now
As all I have left of you is a book bound with some beautiful words and paper inside
And my insides
Well they tell almost the same drunken romantic story, just like how Bukowski planned it
And we both liked it that way
But you sir
It's time to settle the score
Can I get back the constant beat of racing hearts? And that walk through the woods?
You led me and I followed you through and through
Into the dark I will always follow you
Never mind that, time to settle the score
So in turn with these debts of karmic lives past and present
You have some things I gave away that I wasn't quite ready to lose yet
A thousand stares in to your eyes when you bid me all those goodbyes
And the millions of tears ****** back but ended up finding their way out the pockets of the holes to my Soul
And they would not subside, they will not subside
To settle the score even deeper let's talk about flesh
O this is a sore subject for most, and I haven't even gotten to the good parts yet
As skin and bones and meat and muscles and things and your hand slid to that small of my back
Well they all seemed to melt into each other, like the language of love learned fluently, as if we became attached
And your mouth would part open just a bit as you took your other hand and drowned me and I washed you in
And you knew the way and I could feel it too
And never not once had to tell you how to touch
It was like our bodies were crafted for each other, just as such
And all the time in the world didn't seem enough and I was always the last one to fall asleep
And sometimes during the night I would awake and look and you were still there by my side
And you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen with these swollen eyes
Not moon in the night nor sun in the day could compare to that sleepyhead and his face
And the mornings when we would rise together at the same time and give praise to the long gone night
In thanks of another new day to begin with you
I guess I can't settle the score
Never have never will
I love you so much
Come back to me
Come Home

How does the look in your eyes seem so free?
And you nap on the bench for hours
and wish to acquire much needed affection all so carefully carelessly.
And I guess I see kitty cat,
you are no different from me.

looked all my life and found only heartache, the moment i stop looking i find sucha cosmic beautiful entity. synchronistic destiny?

It's the...
ZzZzZzZzZz all day
Living it up my way
Cricket noises outside my window
The leaves and how the wind blows
Sun light shining thru the blinds
My life not tied to time
Good book I can't put down
Driving away and skipping town
Homies I'm for till the end
Being high from 10 to 10
Music that lulls me to sleep
Blanket that warms my feet
Phone call that makes me smile
"Stay with me for awhile?"
Smoke in my lungs
Soaking in the sun
Having too much fun
Being with my numero one
Boy that makes my heart jump
My room thats a dump
Sweet talking I want to hear
The tallest places that I fear
Hot tea at 7 o'clock
Smoking a bowl on my dock
Late mornings I crawl out of bed
Hangovers that hurt my head
Late nights I'm far from home
Waking up all alone
One I want to call my own
Getting in the zone
Weekends I lose my mind
$10 for a dime
Last voice before I go to bed
"You're all I'll ever need."
I said.

Ultra Euphoric Tunnel Time Travel Trance Dance

She always sighed looked to the clouds and said,
"I can no longer pretend. Cuz its times like these that drive me to envy the dead."
A little lighter but still in remorse, she continued,
"And I don't mean to pry but those hues in your face, the colors of your eyes.
Well I wanted to take them and mix em with my every day visions.
Cuz its one shade I never want to forget and cease to exist silly revisions."
She always continued.
" & In the late years mist and molding leaves melting back to the earth again.
It reminded us of a simpler time we'd said.
The kind when we were able to feel alive even if we were still stuck in the womb of the town from where we came
and faulty attempts to look a little less dead."
Her eyes laughed. "Atleast on the inside anyway. I saw it in a few passing glimpses before."
But silly girls always question: "Shall I wonder to ever view those soul windows once more?"
A tattered chapter. A rememberance of melancholic place.
A word never spoke too soon so it has no mouth to try and escape.
A heart to sew on her sleeve but no instead to rip the seam apart,
string it along telephone wires signaling the urgent call
while all the neighbors nostrals flare in disgust at what some gossiped as only an electrical fire after all.
And laying in gently crippled memories of all the moments you clench your jaw and grit your teeth
and hold your breath, whether its out of anger and an upset or a loves ***** pleasure in bed.
Timeless is of the essence and I lived in the moment now.
Where tick tocks pay no wake to my sleepyhead
and my earthbound vessel can finally seek rest once the sunset decides to ***** something sweet all over the sky.
"And there." She pointed to the moon, smiling shyly, slitting from the up above beyond and wide.
"Thats where I find the colors. The ones lost from your eyes.
That crafted, ensnared and mystified all who became into existence; past, present and future combined."
And with that she disinegrated, disappeared into the space above.
A myth. A legend. It has been done.
Never to return again and visit the earthly plane she so dearly loved.

I am not afraid to get crazy, loco if you will, or even a little mad
I am not afraid to test my body's worth and pop crazy things in my mouth
Or to tip back and wait for it to hit me right between the eyes
I am not afraid to lay beneath the stars and die in the grass
And let loose there while my skin tingles
and my whole head itches from the ground
I am not afraid to be driven too fast
or to inhale like I haven't a lung left in my whole **** body
I am not afraid of downing drank to my heart's content
Til' I sway and turn in circles and hit the floor
I am not afraid to be in places unknown to me
Or to leave alone with someone I just met
I am not afraid to go to sleep
And have the silly worry about whether I'll wake up the next day
But I can say,
I am afraid I lost you somewhere along the way..

Just like the songs in my head,
my mind is always stuck on you.
In the morning's misty dew and the whole starry night through,
just like these songs in my head,
my brain chemicals constantly spark with the memory of you.

Like déjà vu and the dreams I'm yet to have,
a sense of always knowing and the chills that trickle down my spine,
right before my eyes, are the places I find, my mind is always going,
which were once in disguise, these seductive reflections flowing now become aligned.

Sunlight dripping like dew in the evening's sunset new as the rays sliver down silverly over every cloud.
My gaze caught the sky as it often does, a flashback surprise, a mandala echoing all of the things I love.

Scatter me away just like dust in the wind.
Make my body apart of the Earth again.
So I can see clearly all I have loved so dear
& be with you always, all over, everywhere.

If I crave you, I gots to get you.
I'll make my moves so subtle and so smooth.
I'll flow my words to lure you in, bring you closer my way.
I will do everything in my power to keep you, hold you.
But before I realize I'm the one who got hooked.
Before I can even catch my breath,
kinda like the last summer night you spent getting drunk with your friends,
you're already gone.

I am the vehicle. You are the tree.
Drove right into your roots, acquired some dents in me.
Never considered the collision. So inebriated was my vision.

And so like cosmic dust we both disintegrated and flew away.
Far above the stars, clouds & sea to escape the worn out people
& the ugly faces they make at you & me.
We traveled together, off on our own,
inside these beautifully twisted minds that give growth to our Souls.
Lost in the sparkles of eyes and lost among the billions of stars in the sky.
A dream that came to be almost too true.
I awoke.
In a beaten down, roach infested motel room.
I had realized my mistake and the misfortune of knowing
that something as simple as a hazy-eyed dream
is enough to make your world shake.
The mind wanders in the cracks of infested moments of Love, Lust & Loss.
Feeding off the memories, even the ones you thought you forgot.
I laid there alone in my head.
Alone in this bed.
3:49am does nothing for a too sober insomniac just awakening from the most sweetest dream.
Darkness sets & waits in every corner.
It keeps me company and I think, "Why didn't you come sooner?"
Because darkness is always the same.
Even the Earth can't compete; for come Autumn time it's surroundings start to change.
So I like it this way and darkness I became.
Until I close my eyes
& wait for the chemicals to set in
& the hope for that movie in my brain to press start and change my view of this place
and fade away all that makes me insane
as I travel to the space where cosmic dust you & I became.

When I dream, I dream of you.
And when I dream of you it's in colors that don't exist.
Mind twirlin, boggling away.
It's in my sleepyhead, in my bed where I wish to stay
and perhaps find a name for these colors I cannot recite
and dream of you for always just like day turns into night.
Still I awake from a fuzzy view and find the pillow I'm holding isn't you.
Salted drops form in envelopes of my eyes that are slitted open when I think of how my dreams lie.
And the letter I cry to you is carefully folded inside.
Ink made of tear drops and moon beams and rainbows that leave me starry eyed.

The memory clouds my thoughts
into a forsaken hidden forest
of forbidden feature.
One of delicate depth
that gives the soul to nature.
Treacherous walls made of vines
and dead wings of things,
guarded by spirits,
the ethereal beings.

I Used to be an artist,
a painter that could only portray beauty.
I hung my paintings from the walls of my dreams,
for it was the only place I could find inspiration.
Canvases covered in the finest of oils,
depicted scenes of love at its best.
I once created a man and a woman,
overlooking the ocean from the top of a cliff.
From there they could see the rest of their lives,
and every wave outward was promising.
But in the way of their future,
was a wall of brown, jagged rock.
These waves that held their goals and ambitions,
were reaching their peaks and crashing upon the wall.
Although the risk was evident,
the man held the woman by the waist,
as she was around his neck.
I was enfatuated with my own creation.
Lost in the skin where my colorful thoughts lay.
When I broke free of the lucidity of my dream,
my attention was brought to the floor.
Here laid scattered sketches of the false beauty.
I reached down for one that caught my eye,
but was immediatly induced with fear.
The sketch was in black and white,
and it appeared to duplicate my painting.
It was of a man and a woman,
the same as the oil on the canvas.
But the woman had fallen off the cliff,
with what seemed to be a hole where her heart should be.
And the man was walking in the opposite,
with a still beating heart in his back pocket.
The paper slipped from my lifeless grip as I stood from my seat,
only to realize I had been sitting in blood.
I fled towards the door in search of light.
Little did I know that it was nowhere in sight.
The door flung ajar and my senses captured the salty sea breeze,
and my eyes were transfixed on the ocean.

If you could only feel my love, feel it in the air
If you could only take my love and make me feel like yours is there
If you could only feel my love, it's the kind that grows with old age
If you could only feel my love, maybe you would have stayed
If you could only feel my love, it takes silence into sound
It's enough to make the earth tilt and shake up the ground
If you could only see my love dripping out my every pore
Seeping into the Ocean, swimming for your shore
A drifting little boat lost out at Sea,
Searching for your lighthouse, the shining one that guides me
If you could only feel my love maybe things would change
And this girl left abandoned so beautifully wouldn't feel like a rainbow in the rain
If you could only feel my love, a hurricane with its force
And take the look in my eyes so seriously maybe we could change our course
Enough to move mountains and take the moon from the sky
But my love only created this ripple affect and here I am left alone wondering why

Dreamy tune, thoughts of you.
Corporation of Thievery had my heart beating
as if you had stepped back into the room.

he plays the melodies that sound so soothingly sweet to my ears,
but distant like a star i look for on the evenings the night skies are clear.
lullabies, cosmic surprise, these chills i get when i hear him bare his soul
in tunes that resonate through out the city
like stories of notes that must be told

the inner child cannot die as long as with like minded eyes who sit in disguise in dreams they lie as you wake from the sleepy tide morning dew arisen to be true to the person you always knew was the same one as you.

I took the paints of my fractured pallet and spread them.
I splattered & mixed & even invented some shades no one had seen yet.
I made the sunrise the ocean
and turned the sun into the moon.
I even took the stars from the sky
and made them think they were fireflies too.
I took the West and flipped it East.
I took away the hunger of the Dead Sea and gave it some fish to feast.
I took the North and made it South.
& soon they all became one.
This all was a plan.
Yes, I knew what I had done;
For after the surroundings shifted,
there you were standing before me under a moon that thought it was the sun.
(As the stars danced around us in the day at night
& the fireflies fluttered in the space above us
looking for the light of one another to guide
and hold so tight.)

For time has no ending
As tides do not disappoint to rise
In the sunset's gleaming meeting
Like when earth greets sky
And ancient times continued sending
On the ride where earth is in demise
The moon soundly sleeping
With stars floating in her eyes
As time is briskly sailing
In hopes to race the tide

These butterflies that refuse to subside
Have left me wondering why
I leave myself in such a state
As only you did just the same

I want to tell you all of my greatest stories.
So you think I'm something worth something.
But I'd like to be that top shelf item you reach for,
See the price tag
(For items do not know their own worth.)
And say,
"This one is good.
         Yes, this one will suit me best."
And then you'd take me home and put me on your lonely mantle
And at night, I'd watch you drown yourself in bottles of courage
And warm your bones by the fire I now rest above.
How love looks from afar.
Then I'd whisper,
"Hey it's not just the flames. I told you you still had your glow."

You left the city for a week and this is where I found you. In the petals of my mouth. You pollinate my tongue with your sweetness and my nectar over flows only for you. Help me grow. Even though I know, you must fly back home. The Sun is not enough.

When my body falls among your night skys
I’ll breathe you until I turn to dust.
And there we lay,
Crystal star-gazing eyes
With feelings of smooth warm thighs
Uncovered by untold lies.
Flowing into the forest, out in search of a home
A place to intertwine, a place to call our own
We made the woods our bed,
And soon melted into the earth.

Hours drift by unknowingly to me.
I just can't cut to the chase and my dreams hold no possible chance for resolution either.
And your poetry book I have just now finished,
You know the one you let me borrow the first time
But something in your brain went awry and we were both sad.
Only you still had your glow and mine burnt out sometime ago.
And so anyway, you wanted rid of me but that book you wanted to keep.
So I returned it prompt and it's full pages still blank to me.
Well now here I am back with this poetry book.
Cuz I guess you thought of me as like the words written and you wanted to read and keep me again many times.
Even though we both know I never gave myself for anyone else to play keeps with.
And the book that had to be returned, well it found it's way back into my life again.
You set it on my purse right before I left.
You said "Take it."
Which sounded too familiar to me for I thought the same lines over in my head
Every time I stare into your Ocean eyes
"Take it." I say in my mind
And then you do.
And I live the pain of holding whats not really mine,
Just like this **** book that found it's way into my hands again
That oddly I shall return for a second time
"Take it." and then you will.
And now I am awake & finished & unknowing what to now do at 4:17am
& the People Do Look Like Flowers At Last
Taking it for all it's worth with this ****** good poetry of paper resting it's face on my chest
In the spot where yours should be.

His green eyes gleam and reflect the light,
Like the moon shines down on a chill autumn's night
I watch his face as he dreams his dreams
And wonder what he's seeing, if he sees me
He leaves me in awe and then goes away,
Sometimes to a dark place that I am not welcome to stay
Keep me in the cracks of your ever escaping mind, just as you to I
And let our memories seep out like rain from sky
Smiles so sweet and visions so true
Who knew this masterpiece was so askew
Like a painting that changes and morphs over time
Only the colors get brighter and more vivid are the lines
He's a creation in the making
Got me shaking so much
Just from drowning in the Ocean eyes of a masterpiece
So real you can touch

I saw your soul on stage that night.
It swam in the sound waves
& whispered,
“Come closer.”
So I did.
I saw your soul again in my room that night.
It slid off your tongue
& whispered,
“Come closer.”
So I did.

The saddest song I ever did hear made the tune resound as it shed a tear.
"Why are you so sad?" I asked the song.
And she sings to me her reply so soft and she sings to me so sweet,
But still sounds so sadly, I now could hear a rain shower the green beneath my bare feet.
"I had a love once and I first saw him by the sea and he sang the most beautiful song that matched the same one as me. But the tide came in and swept him away and my love was hidden where underwater I could not stay." I felt her pain as this siren song sang to me, sullen melody to meet my own lost love in this lullaby's dreams as the saddest song I ever heard continued to weep.

I swear it did that night. When I woke up in the middle of the night after we had fallen asleep the first time, I was so thankful the sun was not awake yet too and I felt time had ceased for us and as I searched for your warmth that was still right next to me, our naked bodies laying in the sea of my blankets spilled together and you so softly woke up too and all at once, I took you in again.

I tap my 3rd eye in hopes it will awaken and free me of all duality thoughts and consciousness.
But I guess now I know why there's so many ******* around.
Very few people would be accustomed to crowds of beings walking the streets with 3 eyes.

I hope you're learning to listen and I hope you're learning to stay.
And I hope you're making it a mission to clean up every mess you've made.
I hope you're growing, viciously like a vine and I hope you now realize the pain you feel is the same as mine.
And I hope one day that you'll see that I AM THE ORIGINAL. Always have been. Always will be.
I hope your heart is healing. God knows my hollow one needs it too.
And I hope one day you'll realize I'm the one who writes the poems for you.
The turtle in the shell who peaks his head of his hollow cave
and has just enough time to put his spell on me before he hides again and goes away.
The wounds that you've reopened and the feelings you cannot see are what keep me awake at night
and torture the being that is me.
When all the times I've told you I love you, well I mean it until I die
and my body becomes the cosmic dust that lights up your starry sky.
Why you are in confusion I can very well tell that you've created your own creature
and lit the fires to your own personal Hell.
As I stand by softly watching just as I always have.
I'll never leave you Darling, even if it is your fire that into I am dragged.
What this hold is you have over me I cannot say but its something like when the Sun rises over the Ocean
but you know the Moon still never goes away.
My dreams are almost nightmares stained with your beautiful face
and keep me trapped in limbo without hope of escape.
I think of you always, wondering what could've been
Like the story of Happily Ever After only with a painful twist.
He always leaves her wandering but resurfaces at the convenience of his pain
and then once again abandons her beautifully feeling like a rainbow in the rain;
You cannot see her tears and he gives no umbrella to keep her safe.
So the story of you and I, it can never be written in stone until you realize Darling,
inside you is your natural Home.
I will be here waiting, choking on the smoke of every fire you started and promises you broke.
This creature you say you are is only a reflection of your mind,
tattered and broken yet still one of a kind.
I see no creature, but a boy who is afraid of the world that surrounds him that will eventually be his grave.
I know I will love you forever because in our past lives I did just the same.
I never stopped loving you. You just forced me to bury it away.
So when you lay there at night and contemplate all that you've done,
the lies you've told and the battles you've won.
The eyes that you look into and tell them that you miss.
The lips you ponder and cannot help but kiss.
The hope that you give to me but always take away.
And all the reasons why I never stop loving you even when in your shell you go to hide and stay.
So I hope that you're learning and I hope one day you'll see that when I said "Forever."
that's how I planned it to be.

When I Leave, My Soul Shall Go Wherever She Please

AND SO IF YOU FIND YOUR EYE LIDS DRAGGIN' LOW,
LET YOUR PUPILS GROW.

And if you could've only took to me just right
we could've lived happily,
melting into One,
for the rest of our whole life.

Waves crash and the water swirls and pools around my feet
Lovely thoughts rush of you
A straight shot to the head
I take them from my cranial memoirs
And cast them into the Sea
Never to be brought back again
Buried in the salty sands of the bottomless pit
That reminds me of me
And forever silently sleeping
Is what the Sea tells me, breezily, its meant to be

This old new rush is back again
And I try to grasp the meaning behind it all
I was a fool for what I did and for what I didn't do
You didn't know I existed
And myself I kept hid away from you
What came over me I can't begin to explain
But something held me back on that beach in the rain
For when I first saw you, my heart skipped a rope and jumped a beat
I stood there barefoot and dumbfounded
Have I spotted the One?
I'm a fool, I'm a fool I can't begin to explain
When one is so taken aback by watching beauty play in the rain
Your music lifted me up and carried me away
On that beach that hugs the Ocean, I wish I could forever stay
And listen to you create music with your blue eyes on me
And live this night for always in a tent by the Sea