So to hide these scars that rattle the demon inside
& Shake our frightened bones
We make a toast!

I tap my 3rd eye in hopes it will awaken and free me of all duality thoughts and consciousness.
But I guess now I know why there's so many ******* around.
Very few people would be accustomed to crowds of beings walking the streets with 3 eyes.

Dreamy tune, thoughts of you.
Corporation of Thievery had my heart beating
as if you had stepped back into the room.

If I crave you, I gots to get you.
I'll make my moves so subtle and so smooth.
I'll flow my words to lure you in, bring you closer my way.
I will do everything in my power to keep you, hold you.
But before I realize I'm the one who got hooked.
Before I can even catch my breath,
kinda like the last summer night you spent getting drunk with your friends,
you're already gone.

I am the vehicle. You are the tree.
Drove right into your roots, acquired some dents in me.
Never considered the collision. So inebriated was my vision.

I saw your soul on stage that night.
It swam in the sound waves
& whispered,
“Come closer.”
So I did.
I saw your soul again in my room that night.
It slid off your tongue
& whispered,
“Come closer.”
So I did.

What if our hands did attach?
Like you said when your hand was in mine.
"If we squeeze hard enough maybe we'll become attached
and when I get on the plane we'll say,
'We're attached, see. You can't separate us."
What if our hands did attach?
At the moment you laced my fingers, as if that was that.

I will love the city that loves you that loves the city that loves you that I love

Shaking smiles always hide away
Shy and stubborn they know no other way
When a Soul sees into a Soul its a beautiful thing
To see more to feel
And all the while keep a steady breathing
When eyes connect and lock in place
When vibrations flow and fill your empty space
When my browns met your blues and washed out the invisible room
And kept in motion more than the Ocean follows the Moon
And you closed your eyes and music filled the tide
And all the while I couldn't stop staring with my own wide opened eyes
And beauty resonated there in the cove by the bay of the beach that hugs the Ocean
Where I saw the One who swept me away
Why I didn't make motion of what my heart wanted to say
Couldn't make my frightened bones move your way
So now they'll forever wonder why they were so foolish
As to why the movement wasn't made
To the One in front who had the Golden Cosmic Way
I was blinded by the light I adored and so I couldn't see
That maybe I wasn't the only one who could think you were meant for me

If you could only feel my love, feel it in the air
If you could only take my love and make me feel like yours is there
If you could only feel my love, it's the kind that grows with old age
If you could only feel my love, maybe you would have stayed
If you could only feel my love, it takes silence into sound
It's enough to make the earth tilt and shake up the ground
If you could only see my love dripping out my every pore
Seeping into the Ocean, swimming for your shore
A drifting little boat lost out at Sea,
Searching for your lighthouse, the shining one that guides me
If you could only feel my love maybe things would change
And this girl left abandoned so beautifully wouldn't feel like a rainbow in the rain
If you could only feel my love, a hurricane with its force
And take the look in my eyes so seriously maybe we could change our course
Enough to move mountains and take the moon from the sky
But my love only created this ripple affect and here I am left alone wondering why

When my body falls among your night skys
I’ll breathe you until I turn to dust.
And there we lay,
Crystal star-gazing eyes
With feelings of smooth warm thighs
Uncovered by untold lies.
Flowing into the forest, out in search of a home
A place to intertwine, a place to call our own
We made the woods our bed,
And soon melted into the earth.

I Used to be an artist,
a painter that could only portray beauty.
I hung my paintings from the walls of my dreams,
for it was the only place I could find inspiration.
Canvases covered in the finest of oils,
depicted scenes of love at its best.
I once created a man and a woman,
overlooking the ocean from the top of a cliff.
From there they could see the rest of their lives,
and every wave outward was promising.
But in the way of their future,
was a wall of brown, jagged rock.
These waves that held their goals and ambitions,
were reaching their peaks and crashing upon the wall.
Although the risk was evident,
the man held the woman by the waist,
as she was around his neck.
I was enfatuated with my own creation.
Lost in the skin where my colorful thoughts lay.
When I broke free of the lucidity of my dream,
my attention was brought to the floor.
Here laid scattered sketches of the false beauty.
I reached down for one that caught my eye,
but was immediatly induced with fear.
The sketch was in black and white,
and it appeared to duplicate my painting.
It was of a man and a woman,
the same as the oil on the canvas.
But the woman had fallen off the cliff,
with what seemed to be a hole where her heart should be.
And the man was walking in the opposite,
with a still beating heart in his back pocket.
The paper slipped from my lifeless grip as I stood from my seat,
only to realize I had been sitting in blood.
I fled towards the door in search of light.
Little did I know that it was nowhere in sight.
The door flung ajar and my senses captured the salty sea breeze,
and my eyes were transfixed on the ocean.

I'll protect you from all the things I've seen. Dance in the dirt yet no need to remain clean. I'll scare the evil spirits away that hide in the cracks of your mind, lay in a big green field for days yet no need to realize time.

And so like cosmic dust we both disintegrated and flew away.
Far above the stars, clouds & sea to escape the worn out people
& the ugly faces they make at you & me.
We traveled together, off on our own,
inside these beautifully twisted minds that give growth to our Souls.
Lost in the sparkles of eyes and lost among the billions of stars in the sky.
A dream that came to be almost too true.
I awoke.
In a beaten down, roach infested motel room.
I had realized my mistake and the misfortune of knowing
that something as simple as a hazy-eyed dream
is enough to make your world shake.
The mind wanders in the cracks of infested moments of Love, Lust & Loss.
Feeding off the memories, even the ones you thought you forgot.
I laid there alone in my head.
Alone in this bed.
3:49am does nothing for a too sober insomniac just awakening from the most sweetest dream.
Darkness sets & waits in every corner.
It keeps me company and I think, "Why didn't you come sooner?"
Because darkness is always the same.
Even the Earth can't compete; for come Autumn time it's surroundings start to change.
So I like it this way and darkness I became.
Until I close my eyes
& wait for the chemicals to set in
& the hope for that movie in my brain to press start and change my view of this place
and fade away all that makes me insane
as I travel to the space where cosmic dust you & I became.

Dance to me.
Not for me, but for yourself.
Euphoric undertones sweep over your brow.
And this moment very, Infinite.
This is what you have been waiting for.
You have Arrived.

You can still fake that upwards frown.
But just like the change of pigment in your skin,
the sunshine still knows your heart is not smiling once again.

Black holes,
where the windows to her Soul,
used to be.

I need you to be my morning, afternoon & evening reality
Just like my early rise coffee
I need to start my days with you
I need you that necessarily & sweetened slightly
Licking my lips of your cream
Take you down willfully with five more shots of you in between
Come afternoon, I’ll sip on you during lunch
Sting the tip of my tongue
Your steam which adds to my fiend
Dark & pleasurely
Because you don’t forget a burn like that easily
No matter how good it feels to squirm & scream
And you are just like I dreamed
When in the evening I’m finally downing my last gulp of you
I hold you in tightly to ready you for tomorrow morning’s brew

These butterflies that refuse to subside
Have left me wondering why
I leave myself in such a state
As only you did just the same

It's hard being in love with the bird who always flies away
Sometimes he comes back but refuses to make a nest long enough to stay

Moment, why do you not let me live you for always?
"That is not the way of things."
Why is this?
"Because if moments are to always stay how can you appreciate an admire without a leaving?"

This old new rush is back again
And I try to grasp the meaning behind it all
I was a fool for what I did and for what I didn't do
You didn't know I existed
And myself I kept hid away from you
What came over me I can't begin to explain
But something held me back on that beach in the rain
For when I first saw you, my heart skipped a rope and jumped a beat
I stood there barefoot and dumbfounded
Have I spotted the One?
I'm a fool, I'm a fool I can't begin to explain
When one is so taken aback by watching beauty play in the rain
Your music lifted me up and carried me away
On that beach that hugs the Ocean, I wish I could forever stay
And listen to you create music with your blue eyes on me
And live this night for always in a tent by the Sea

Sunlight dripping like dew in the evening's sunset new as the rays sliver down silverly over every cloud.
My gaze caught the sky as it often does, a flashback surprise, a mandala echoing all of the things I love.

Moon light seduced me out of the corner of my eye;
Left all the memories I needed kept inside.
I focused. Time was of the essence with these celestial things.
Looking like a God in the sky compared to these startled young beings.

The sidewalks then blend
When each thought of you begin

Take my tattered wings and learn how to fly
Reach the cosmos, past the sky
Go to the moon
Take a dip in sparkled specks of space
No place like this
In the mist I'll sit and wait
In four walled rooms with no ceilings attached
Like endless hallways with wallpapers that don't match
Relax and float down stream on Neptune's rings
Sipping moon beams
Snorting moon dust
Huffing moon musk
Feeling reborn
But stuck in the middle, the cusp

I am not afraid to get crazy, loco if you will, or even a little mad
I am not afraid to test my body's worth and pop crazy things in my mouth
Or to tip back and wait for it to hit me right between the eyes
I am not afraid to lay beneath the stars and die in the grass
And let loose there while my skin tingles
and my whole head itches from the ground
I am not afraid to be driven too fast
or to inhale like I haven't a lung left in my whole **** body
I am not afraid of downing drank to my heart's content
Til' I sway and turn in circles and hit the floor
I am not afraid to be in places unknown to me
Or to leave alone with someone I just met
I am not afraid to go to sleep
And have the silly worry about whether I'll wake up the next day
But I can say,
I am afraid I lost you somewhere along the way..

I guess its really no surprise other people notice how magic you are, but I just can’t help but want to be the only one who gets to be under that magnetic spell you cast.

he plays the melodies that sound so soothingly sweet to my ears,
but distant like a star i look for on the evenings the night skies are clear.
lullabies, cosmic surprise, these chills i get when i hear him bare his soul
in tunes that resonate through out the city
like stories of notes that must be told

You left the city for a week and this is where I found you. In the petals of my mouth. You pollinate my tongue with your sweetness and my nectar over flows only for you. Help me grow. Even though I know, you must fly back home. The Sun is not enough.

Well what can i say. its just another day after another day after another day. patience my child patience. each morning i rise i must remind myself of this. Waiting for the earth and myself to transcend from the cocoon, warm winds and the sun to crisp my skin. Meditating in the forest ritualitis ways. Matter a fact, needing to be laying with you in a big green field for a few days, watch the world melt a little. Your vibe is so beautiful. I promise always always to be true. Could never do no wrong to those baby blues. I guess what I’m trying to say is a mess from the start but as long as I can manage to speak clearly these thoughts. I open my eyes inside of my dream and there you are just as beautiful as can be. I whisper to your soul, “Can I keep you? Can I keep you?” In due time my baby in due time, when the sun sets in the forest and we soon discover what love is on this dense dead leaved, pine needled floor that decays as we dance right through the next perception of the door. I whisper “My darling I need your taste. Craving galore. So can I keep you please? Just once more?”

like the sun needs the sky to set and rise
and how the moon needs the stars to not feel so lonely so way up high
and like the sand who meltingly molds and falls for the tide,
wistfully kisses her shoreline, tracing grains gracefully every time he arrives.

so you know how i told you about that cabin i want to escape to, way deep in the woods? i hope you'll join me. be free. with me. be free. with me. and let my love be your heart's key.

How does the look in your eyes seem so free?
And you nap on the bench for hours
and wish to acquire much needed affection all so carefully carelessly.
And I guess I see kitty cat,
you are no different from me.

Scatter me away just like dust in the wind.
Make my body apart of the Earth again.
So I can see clearly all I have loved so dear
& be with you always, all over, everywhere.

Waves crash and the water swirls and pools around my feet
Lovely thoughts rush of you
A straight shot to the head
I take them from my cranial memoirs
And cast them into the Sea
Never to be brought back again
Buried in the salty sands of the bottomless pit
That reminds me of me
And forever silently sleeping
Is what the Sea tells me, breezily, its meant to be

Well I think I'll just go crazy
I think I'll just lose my mind
I think I'll just stay in bed today
Yeah, that's how I'll spend my time
This mad brain won't forget you
Believe me, I've almost got it to try
By smoking & dosing & gulping everything man has made & of earth alive

His green eyes gleam and reflect the light,
Like the moon shines down on a chill autumn's night
I watch his face as he dreams his dreams
And wonder what he's seeing, if he sees me
He leaves me in awe and then goes away,
Sometimes to a dark place that I am not welcome to stay
Keep me in the cracks of your ever escaping mind, just as you to I
And let our memories seep out like rain from sky
Smiles so sweet and visions so true
Who knew this masterpiece was so askew
Like a painting that changes and morphs over time
Only the colors get brighter and more vivid are the lines
He's a creation in the making
Got me shaking so much
Just from drowning in the Ocean eyes of a masterpiece
So real you can touch

I see in you the light the world needs to see
Your brilliant mind is that of organized chaos, a need for affection
and the final fear that it could be right on front of you
Scared little boy,
I'll love you even when you're blue

If you woulda asked me back then if I thought we would last forever
I would have said, "Without a doubt."
But I guess it's just human nature now
Cuz ever since you left me up high
I haven't been able to come down

When I dream, I dream of you.
And when I dream of you it's in colors that don't exist.
Mind twirlin, boggling away.
It's in my sleepyhead, in my bed where I wish to stay
and perhaps find a name for these colors I cannot recite
and dream of you for always just like day turns into night.
Still I awake from a fuzzy view and find the pillow I'm holding isn't you.
Salted drops form in envelopes of my eyes that are slitted open when I think of how my dreams lie.
And the letter I cry to you is carefully folded inside.
Ink made of tear drops and moon beams and rainbows that leave me starry eyed.

Lie and and and...
DO NOT LIE !
Be of Truth.
Because that's where your very nature lives.
And when you acknowledge a non-truth appreciate that knowing and move on -
The fact that you realize is already a step towards Truth.
..And that is all there ever was.

Whisper sweet words from your lips
As I sense the inebriation from the waves of your hips
That move like the Ocean
Swaying and drowning me in
Two Souls born
And now only one remains within
As we join in together like rising tides of the Sea
And you flow your loving arms around me
Like the roots from a tree

you were always with me so now i know you are always with me.

Want you to connect to me like a road map to the sea.

Just like the songs in my head,
my mind is always stuck on you.
In the morning's misty dew and the whole starry night through,
just like these songs in my head,
my brain chemicals constantly spark with the memory of you.

Like déjà vu and the dreams I'm yet to have,
a sense of always knowing and the chills that trickle down my spine,
right before my eyes, are the places I find, my mind is always going,
which were once in disguise, these seductive reflections flowing now become aligned.

the inner child cannot die as long as with like minded eyes who sit in disguise in dreams they lie as you wake from the sleepy tide morning dew arisen to be true to the person you always knew was the same one as you.

When I Leave, My Soul Shall Go Wherever She Please

Warm chime sing beat
Love me tender to my feet
See the children play in the street
Smile & laugh cuz so were we

Paint me as you see me.
Because on the canvas, you also capture yourself.