I just want the bleeding to stop, I beg and plead.
When does the disappointment stop? You're hurting me.

Pain runs down my weak veins, legs buckle. How long will this drag this out? As you're pulling me.

Suffocated, intoxicated, disheartened lost soul. Bring me back to joy, back to being the real me.

For now I just bleed.
Bleed.
         B l e e d.

Soft wind, tender neck
Kissing lips once pressed

Sky black, universe unfolds
Light beyond reach tonight

Train tracks, quiet sorrow
Silence reveals hallow heart

Lush meadow, abandoned field
Laying on lonely tracks

Past bloom, flower fade
Heart tearing out name

Erase memories, take wind
Midnight train goodbye sin

A glow in her palm
Another smile spreads like wildfire

Doorbell rings
Delicate footsteps patter

Hips resting in his embrace
Heavy breath in, light breath out

Under the sheets they play
Uncovered legs entangled

But then the night settles
Beside him she lies in his embrace

Eyes wide open
Entire heart bare
Emotions unraveling

Where her last mans words live

On this bed
On this body
On this brain

Scars start to bleed
Shame starts to float

Quietly tiptoes sound
Quickly gathering clothes

Turn around
There he is sleeping peacefully now

Encapsulate this moment
Escape the damaging of a whole heart

Closing the door on tonight
Close the door to her heart

His words seeped like a sweet whisper,
Swaying branches in her tree.
Blood flowing to the tips of her fingers, all the way to her rosy cheeks.

But sweetness disguises the bitter...
A wasp hard at work, filling honey in her soul.
This intricate, delicate hive he has built, surrounding her with delicious walls.

Step off course, and with a stroke of her hand...
Buzzing became deafening, engulfing, intoxicating.
What once was a blue sky turned to grey,
his swarm blocked out the day.

Sharp pain began to spread, one excuse after another.
One piercing lie after another.
With each sting, her respect bleed away.  
Stealing her sweetness, leaving her in decay.

Through the winter she waited, her emptiness soaking in cold flakes.
Until spring finally came - and a new bee began building his hive, on sweet honey lies.

Farewell sweetheart,

I closed the door without a sound.
Teardrops fell to the ground.

You loved me softly, you filled me with grace.
But I can't live this lie just to save face.

I don't feel joy, I can't sense pain.
If only you knew what was going on in my brain.

Life without you once seemed impossible, and now it is the reality I face.
I'll never forget the moments we had, how you made me blush in lace.

The train is leaving the station and I'm going away.
There is no point in hoping I'll stay.

I look around and feel like a stranger here, there's not enough room in your heart.
We both deserve a fresh start.

I won't wake you, my feet gently cross the floor.
Our story is over, I can't do this anymore.

So goodbye my sweet, these memories will last. Until the next time, I'll remember you and briefly gaze in the past.

His words struck.
The final nail in my coffin.

His actions sliced deep.
The shovel digging my grave.

His excuses smelled sweet.
The flowers to my farewell.

His eyes pierced my heart.
The tear drops on his cold cheek.

His hands melted my soul.
The palms holding his head low.

His legs carried him away.
The day he left me, and buried this grave.

All it takes is one second.
For the cracks to appear.

Then I read those words....
Shatter.

A million fragments of thought,
Flying in the air.
Suddenly I can't breathe,
So I just stand there.

And in an instant hope hits the ground,
A million little parts of me scatter around.
Broken breaths of a lost heart,
Followed by slow blinks seconds apart.

This is my reality.
This is where I'm at.
In this moment...
                              ... shattered is who I am.