I sit in my empty home and cry
Thinking of all the people
That could have been here

Stick me in the ground
Cover my body with dirt
My soul won't be saved

If you're wondering
Where I am; remember
where did you leave me?

A good place to start
I don't know where it will end
But I know it will

I drink till I puke
Smoke until my lungs are black
I **** till I hate

Here I lie, drowning
Face down
In two inches of lukewarm misery
A cool breeze of self loathing in the air

I live so close to train tracks
It would be so easy
To just take a rest
And be rid of this world
I never asked for life
I've only begged for death
But what of the people
Whom I've crossed paths with
If I could only explain
The pain in my mind
Festering from birth
Consuming my life
Maybe they would be okay
Maybe I will be okay

There is a monster inside of me,
It takes all I have to contain.
It has hurt me, It has lied to me,
It has taken control of my brain
Lurking in my head silently
It waits to inflict It's pain

I shower, put on deodorant, and brush my teeth ; then put on the same ***** clothes I've been wearing all week

I see you
I wonder
Can you see me?
Behind this veil
With my hatred
Pointed at your skull
I can't help but wonder
If I would prefer it in pieces
But then what would I do with your
head?