No, I won't back out now
At the edge of a precipice,
Between a hard place
And a harder rock
Piercing into my gut,
I want to spill
But I can't rewind
This tape
Not now,
Because I know
Deep down inside,
That I would do it
All over again,
And again,
Even if I knew then
What I know now,
For that smile
I'd never hesitate
No matter how much
My mind hates my heart,
I had already jumped from the start
And there is no changing course
I can only brace myself
For that bittersweet pain...

APAD15 - 001 © okpoet

So far from perfection
But still my predilection,
Two eyes two ears
One mouth one heart,
Head on her shoulders
Feet on the ground,
Smile makes me smile
Laugh makes me laugh,
Silence is a tune
But speaking is a song,
Whatever we may lack
We can make on our own,
She can say what she may
But I can hear what she thinks,
I know her fears
She knows my heart,
We are two boulders
Strong and sound,
Rolling mile after mile
From a whole I am half,
She left one June
I thought forever but I was wrong,
She came back
And though apart together we've grown,
So come what may
Even if our ship sinks,
I've got a paddle
She's got a ladle,
We'll make it through
For each other we'll do,
Anything and everything
As long as the sky has a sun,
And the birds can sing
The adventures have begun...
© okpoet

I want to hit it
And never quit
I'd follow her through the mall
Be it winter spring
Summer or Fall
That's the thing
About her
If I were a cat
She'd make me purr
She's all that
And more,
Evermore will I soar
With her under my wings
My soul just sings and sings
Always glad
For all that had
To happen
For our paths to cross
But never at a loss
For words will I ever be
For she is my sea to shining sea
My own happy, the end...

APAD14 - 008  © okpoet

I don't know karate
But I'm choppin' ham
Into itty bitty pieces *****
So much sodium
Making dead bodies twitch
Dance to the pandemonium
Pizza in the toaster
Why you always hatin'
You don't even use a coaster
All that cheese ain't even permeatin'
If I'm gonna give chase
Gonna need red bull by the case,
Outta breath
But not out of bread,
Caesar dressing
Soda can pressing
Coat drumettes in blue cheese
Leave crumbs at their knees,
This meal is too rich like valet
But I got that entrance fee
Call it a Warren Buffet
Mmm mmm gawd ****...

I loved her more than she loved him;
And I couldn't let her go as she held on to him,
I wanted her above all things;
And he wanted her amongst his things,
I knew her better than she knew me;
He knew her less than I knew him,
Every night I dreamt of her;
While every night she slept with him,
I tried mending her tattered heart;
While she crushed mine yearning for his,
But I still couldn't let her go;
I wouldn't; not for him,
My feelings betrayed just at the thought of her;
Why wouldn't my God let me die?
I had to deal with him not letting go of her;
Her heart I tried to pry away from him,
He had it tied to his finger commanding her;
Pulling on her leash; his face a sneering grin,
Wished I could be blind to her;
As she was to her captor; but she saw captain,
I thought I couldn't suffer with her out of sight;
But I did still; for her...
© okpoet

Thanks for all
The wishes you granted,
And all the hopes
You grew in me,
Thanks for the summers
That eclipsed
All the other seasons,
And the reasons
You left in dew drops
Upon my heart;
As to why I'll
Never be alone,
Thanks for the
Bright smiles
And brighter laughs
That let me not
Need to run
From any darkness,
And the inside jokes
That left me outside
Of my misery
Without you;
Just watching
It all stupidly
Wondering why
I was even sad at all...
APAD13 016 - © okpoet

I have a window
It's in my heart,
You can see clearly
My intentions,
I can see you too
As I look out,
I can see if you are;
Darkness or light,
I have a door
It's in my mind,
You can come knocking
And I will answer,
If you ask me
For a need or a want
I will give what I can,
If you demand of me
I will reject you,
If I let you in
You are welcome,
If I lock you out
Never turn to me again;
I have no room for just anyone...
© okpoet

I know
I can't
Love you
Until the end of time
Because I don't know
If that ever will or can be,
The earth is
4.5 billion years old
And I don't see
It's demise anywhere near,
And if our souls could
Reincarnate
I'd hope to find you
Over and over again,
But for now
In this lifetime
I hope
All the words
I've ever written
Will survive me;
My greatest
Tribute to you;
Longer lasting
Than any Styrofoam
Or diamond,
And they,
They alone
Will love you
Until the end
Whenever that is so...
APAD13 - 065 © okpoet

I've disconnected
Put another dollar in
Because I'm going to keep going
Though it's all wifi
Remote login
Not all in
Drone fighter
Roll pitch and yaw
Death wobble mid flight
To your heart
Down and out
In the darkness
Morse that no one sees
Can't read the code
Between squiggly lines
Overlapping the message
With no return address
And overdue postage
Undeliverable,
Christmas letters
Without an answer
To wishes no longer needed...

Some say
They love
With all their heart,
But the brain
Is what thinks
Those thoughts,
The mouth talks
And kisses,
The hands touch
And caress,
The nose itches
And smells,
The eyes see
And take in the view,
The ears wax poetic
And listen,
The body moves
And bends at will,
All the senses
Share in what the mind wants,
And so I say
I love you
With my whole being,
Every fiber and atom
Of this universe
That flows
Through me
Simply
In adoration
Of you...

-okpoet

This is me
This is you,
What am I
Who are you?
You say hi
I say goodbye,
Would I lie to you;
Could you tell me the truth?
What is blue?
I am,
You are there
I am here
We are nowhere near,
I would ****,
Do you hear my cry shrill?
I am
You Are
We are nobody,
I hear no one
I see you;
Do you know me?
I miss you and me and we
But do you remember us?
I do but don't, I can't, I won't...
© okpoet

Pop pop pop
Corn
Buttery smooth
Oiled up
Bounce bounce bounce
ING direct
In my face
Book
Her on charges
Reckless
More than I thought
Weaving and dodging
On the shoulder
Whispers
From the back
Of my mind,
Peanut gallery
Tug of war
Decisive indecisions
That will haunt
My nightmares
Growing molded regrets...

All the music
Sounded better
With her,
Now it's just
White noise
A silence
So loud,
It's difficult
To stir
Feelings
Deep within
My heart,
Like dry cement
Barely a tap
From the beat
What can I do,
To get my groove
Back again,
Tune my soul
Like a guitar
Back to when
Every emotion
Struck a chord,
Swayed by her love...

I don't want to run out of love
But you drain me and I can't come back
The same
Everyday a little less brighter
I'm a fighter
But I don't know
What I'm fighting for
Anymore
I sleep empty
Every meal I'm less full
I still wake hungry
But I find no satiety,
You didn't ask me
What I'd do for you
But I've done everything I can
And yet you've made me doubt
That the best I could do
Wasn't good enough
And though I try
To not give up,
I feel I can't keep going
Mr Tik-Tok,
But no Dorothy
To wind me up again...

Some would say
You're dreamers
In a tough world
Married young,
Some will say
Reality will hit you
Soon enough
You'll wake up,
Catch your breath
And come down
To earth,
But I say;
You married
In love;
Your union
Was made
By the light
Of the stars
Dots connected
Spelled out
God's blessings,
I say as long
As you have  
Each other,
Nothing will seem
Impossible
You'll live out
Your dreams
Hand in hand
Till your hearts
Fade into the sand...
© okpoet

I took her hand
She took my heart
I gave my trust
She gave her soul
To all the others;
I was left wanting,
For a simple touch
Her smile,
They knew not what she was;
Star amongst stars,
A galaxy;
I wished for her to be so much more
Than they who expected her submission,
To do their bidding just another tool;
An equal I desired for her to be;
Bared my desires,
But she was blind;
Thought she could only get so much;
For her worth,
And here I was offering more than enough;
Guess she'll never know true love,
Can transcend the physical expression;
If I can't save her
I must move on...
© okpoet

Can't remember
The last time
Anyone inquired
How am I?
The days have blended
A smooth seamless
Desert of time,
Endless grains
Of minutes
Stacked high
As far as anyone can see,
It just dawned on me
How parched I am,
But not for water
Just a small oasis
Of me, for me,
For I am without
A sense of self
Where am I going?
Where have I been?
I wish to soar
But I'm sunk
Have to dig
Myself out,
Before I forget
Again...

-okpoet

My cookie crumbles
No heart or ice cream
Can cure
My emotions
Melting
Pooled around
Her thoughts
Shattered bits
Like rotten teeth
Falling out of me
Can't put them back in without
Blood and sinew
Ever straight again,
Gnawing dreams
Turned flailing hopes
That pray for solvency
In the midst of storms
That rain
On all parades
Gay or narrow
Straight to the core,
A nougat of fraught angst...

Esta foto
Como me cae,
Cuetes al aire
Explosión tras explosión
Reventón tras reventón,
Mira hacia el cielo
Nubes de Hiroshima
Obliterando qué?
Las aspiraciónes
Llueve inspiración
Belleza como cual?
Ninguna comparación,
Un amanecer
Un atardecer
Vida de una flor
Enbotellada en una figura
Como una galaxia cósmica
En el lente de un telescopio
Se me escapa suspiro tras suspiro,
Anhelo por vivir
Simplemente porque
Existes tú...


This image
How it strikes me,
Rockets to the sky
Explosion after explosion
Shock wave after shock wave
Look to the heavens
Clouds like Hiroshima
Obliterating what?
The aspirations
It rains inspiration
Beauty like no other?
No comparison,
A break of dawn
A sunset,
Life of a flower
Bottled in a figure
Like a cosmic galaxy
In the lens of a telescope
Sigh after sigh escapes me,
I thirst to live
Simply because
You exist...

My love is still analog
Like paper maché science projects
Wet ink on letters
Postage stamps
Typewriters,
No text messages
Emojis without emotion
These digital expressions
That lack the depths
Mariana
I'm entrenched
In this barricade
Heart with a crown
Blood soaked tears
Paint brushed art
On the walls
As every beautiful thing
Does not make you feel
What museums cannot
Showcase,
The passion of ages
At dialup speeds
Lingering static...

Sometimes it all takes me back
To the 1st times
When it all began,
The originals
Steady and true
Never thought it could change
That it would
Go any other way
But here we are
Another day
Another direction
I feel like I'm an astronaut
I couldn't be further
From you
As we almost graze
Each other
Mere millimeters,
And it stokes
The fires
Raging within
What wouldn't I
Set ablaze
To be warmed
Into you,
Meld and entwine
And unite
But we always
Untie
Even more,
This backwards love
That leads me
Still here
Ever for
Loving
Unto you...

-okpoet

I wish that I
Could know,
If I'm on your mind
Like sunflowers
Follow the warmth
Across the sky,
I yearn
For you
Until the next
Rainshower
Comes along,
In a parched
Desert plain,
You are
The bluest
Moon among
The stars
That sparkle,
Thoughts that rise
Every time
You take a breath,
A mirage
On the horizon
You are
My oasis...

APAD2020 - 003

It's 3:03
In the morning
And all I can dream of
Is of the softness
Of your body,
The curvature
Of the earth
The equators
The hemispheres
Have nothing
Against the geography
Of your skin,
I traverse the deserts
The jungles
Of your southern regions
In my mind
A safari
Of exquisite
Smells and taste,
The bazaar of you
A map of treasures
That I endeavor
To hunt in
But for an elixir
To calm my soul,
I miss
The eureka
The euphoria
Infinite wonders
Of you...

APAD2020 - 002

I keep hoping
Fantasizing
She'll come around
And ask me
Have you learned
Your lesson?
And I wouldn't be here
Countdown to misery
Down to less a son
Less a friend,
All by my own
On a road
Back to square one
Leaf in the wind,
My roots severed
Roads diverged
Down a path
The fork
I never washed
Dreams that shook
A shattered vase
Flowers wilted
Love that I thought
Stood the test of time...

APAD 03172021

I awake
Expecting you there,
I lie awake
The scent of you
Lingers in the air,
Like a crow in my mind
A squawk of thoughts
That rewind and replay
Every single detail,
Every inch
That I've traversed
Where every fiber met
My fingers
A phantom touch
Like memory foam
Of my skin,
The contact ebbs
The flow of your body
Almost etched
Into my very soul,
Oh how can I sleep
Where an angel has been...

APAD2020 - 001