it's been days...
weeks...
months.
since I felt the salt on my skin
burning from the sun
making my skin golden
glowing, my cheeks blushing all day every day
my hair curly and salty

my feet kicking the blue sea
playing with the sand wet or dry
running with my dog
my golden legs moving

my hair seaweed as I float on the surface of the blue waters
swirling around, playing, dancing
the cold waters cooling my burnt golden skin
Hydrating

the waves making music
the fire crackling to keep me and my friends warm
as we listen to one play the guitar
as we gaze at the diamonds in the sky

Neptune sharing his beauty
making me and everything and one around me beautiful

as my lover swims
in the blue waters
under the golden Sun
the birds sing a song of love.
she stands alone
perfectly
in a sea of pearls.
the Sun rays shine upon on her milky skin.
Neptune's kingdom was built for her

facing a Gemini
not a literal one
my sport washing my life
a dose of nostalgia swallows me
overdoses of sadness, stress, and blindness
relaxation, a blue moon will show its face
my heart. attached to one is now lost
my independence climbing back
constantly getting knocked down
trying to climb the mountain of feels
defeating the monster of confusion
crossing bridge Gemini for a short cut
rarely making it
when I think I accomplish the journey and surprise always knocks me down
just like my swimming
my last lap was always putting me down
wasting all my energy on the first lap.

My head
a volcano that. wants to erupt
but the wine cork stops it
internal explosion occurs and the volcano breaks down

My thoughts
a bottle of shaken champagne
wanting to explode
and spill
with golden sparkling thoughts
but the owner changing its mind to a '61 Latour
a more expensive drink
the bubbles collecting up to the tip
wanting to speak
but the bubbles fade and goes back to the golden liquid
as my thoughts meltdown inside me

My heart.
literally no longer around
its been locked up
in a cell behind my bones
guilty of charge
putting feelings before the mind causing ******

My Ears

overdosed with music
songs that now control my mood
dreamy, sad, hype anything my ears crave
a marijuana to my mind
******* to my heart
and LSD to my ears
shrooms to my vision

summer of 2k19 pt.1

My heart races
Nervous.Excited.Anxious...suspicious
Lies to get somewhere you felt was right

Waiting...Looking...checking my phone for a text
"I'm close"..."Im here, where are you"
My eyes searching...scared and alone
I call a friend
I see a similar figure
My heart pounds
..finally...
Two young teenagers walking for a spot for just the two
20 minutes pass.
nothing
30 minutes pass...nothing
He finds a place and the stars greet above us
Laughter fills the darkness

20 minutes pass...
Only laughter is heard, and movement
My adrenaline dies...
Patience...stops
My phone rings as my ride remind me when it will be there
..nothing.

I stop listening to his music
I look into his eyes to try and read whats up

nothing

more time has passed..more music is shared..more opportunities blown

the spark inside of me died..and I put myself in
I asked whats playing in his mind
Why the cold feet
No proper explanation
I get up...he watches me
watches me take his money and put it in his bag and the device to import music to my ears
he asks where his money is and why I packed his belongings
I hug him for the last opportunity

but nothing
I walked off watching the fish under me swim
he calls after me and we sit down looking at the sea...
he sees danger for him and me
my heart wimper
my mind turns into a storm
my cheeks red
the energy I had was just silence and pace
I walked to the car

texts ring my phone
the expected sorry
and the text it doesn't feel right hurt me

I won't look at him..

My heart stiched back
My stomach now flutters
Your arms are my walls
You are my knight and shining armor
My cries become laughs

My calls are useful
My lips on yours
I'm here with you

Only you

Others look
They see my smile
My walk becomes better
My thoughts becomes cleaner
I am who I was and I'll never change

I am here with you
again
And no one will tear us apart

And no one will ever stop me from loving you

His warm heart melts you
His laugh so contagious
His softness
The protection and the safe feeling
His eyes so dark
...yet mysterious
His passion
The love he gave you, and the sacrifices he made
To have you..and only you

You,
So blind and ill-advised
So hated for what you have done
To cut the rope
All because you listened to the devils around you

He calls, but is busy smoking his sorrows away
You think he belongs to a different heart
And you smash your glass heart for him you love

Broken and wet you cry through the night..
He's gone..