Almost growing up together
Almost living closer
Almost happy
Almost with you
Almost kissed you
Almost hugged you
Almost spoke to you
Almost crossing paths
Almost met you
Almost...

Your voice fading
Your touch leaving
Your smile disappeared
Your smell
Your eyes
You.

My smile fading
My mind leaving
My emotions disappeared
My love
My heart
Gone.

Our path ended in a fork
We walked on
Never looking back
I wasn't glowing
You were in the rain
Walking as blood trickled down our legs
Slowly stitching our holes
As we walk...
Further
And further
Away.

I looked back once
To only see your silhouette disappear
But when I looked ahead
I saw the light
I didn't miss you
I missed the moment

I look down to see a puddle of blood
To see the holes in me
You created them
I created yours

The end of the road is where our future began
Our own future.

you built me a tower
filled with walls
walls with gleaming colors
floors shine like pearls
as you leave me with a foundation
made of glass
cracking
day by day they crack
as you build more levels to the tower

advertising hope
strength
a tower that brings suffering
and dept
a dept to myself
my body
my heart
a dept so grand it might as well fall
a dept so grand
I pay you with my energy
a grey tower
no longer glowing in the darkness
beaming through the dark sky

grey tower
cold and frail
cracking
glass
a grey tower
getting taller and taller
my grey tower

its okay to not be okay
its okay to be down all day
your body feels grey
your eyes
ripped out
your heart leaking below you
and your brain
in a box
torturing you with thoughts
that turn you blue
your body
lonely
your heart
fatigued

its okay to not be where your eyes are stuck on
opening the door
slowly
your mind peaks at the crack
you
alone
music lasting seconds
looped
your eyes
deeper
your heart draining
and your mind
running
running through every door possible that was closed
flooding the room with oceans of emotions
drowning
slowly drowning deeper
a suicide of thoughts
its okay to not be okay

Dear Valentines,
Oh you're so far away
In a country, I would love to be at and stay
Our stars aligned
Yet our paths never crossed
Our paths crossed as we were angels, innocent souls
Giving out cards and candies that says "Be Mine"
But are you?
Your aura gives me joy and comfort
But it makes me hesitate breaking our flow of the spell
Your words make me smile
My face stretches without me realizing
My smile hugs my face
and my cheeks are sore

Dear Valentine,
We connect so well
Yet complete opposites
Distance has stopped us to go where we would go
But, you have your own valentine
And all I can do is listen to your happiness

Dear Valentine,
You almost got me there
But I need to share
my lack of interest in pain
And to keep me sane
I look past
and exchange words with no emotions
to protect me and only me
If you could see
the care I give to you
and joy you bring to me
I would fly to you with no hesitation
But its best I stay
stationed
Because at this time
It's valentines

what's it like to feel
stress-free
not banging ur head against the wall

what's  it like to run like the world never ends
the sun always shines
and the rain feels sweet
and sleep so deep
instead of being stuck
where the sun and stars aren't in your presence
and sleep so loud

whats it like to know safety feels like
and serotonin running through your veins
instead of feeling lost
and numb

whats  it like to feel affection
and love with someone you are happy with
comfortable
instead of losing so much hope
and the electricity is dying
waiting for a day to meet someone that would return what you give

and if you feel free,
were you stuck before?

swallowed  in a world of green
creatures hiding below me
watching every  move I make
a line leading me down
to the  green abyss
fear grows as the color deepens
swallowing me as a whole
electricity kisses my hand as a welcoming gesture
my knuckle covered  with small dots
a stain from  the kiss
deeper as i go
the line never ends
as i levitate holding my breathe
nothing  but green surrounds me
cold water shivers down my body
waking up  my  nerves to keep me from being hypnotized
by  the green eyes
my chest contracts
my signal to leave
the green monster lets  me go
as i head up slow
the green lightens
and i see the blue sky draping over me
and as i look down
the  green abyss smiles at me
waiting for me to go back