I saw the red flags. I ignored.
You were what this heart is yearning for
I tried to stop, override it but it said error.

Now I'm filled with ache and terror
Coz I know you're not meant to stay
I'm only your temporary fix
Someone you can call when you've got nobody.

My heart beats twice its regular speed
I couldn't calm it down nor ease the ache
I can't stop the tears, the fears
I'm addicted in this sad unrequited vice.

A temporary fix, a temporary fix
That's what I am
It hurts but it's the only way I could reach you, touch you.

I should walk away but my heart wants to stay
In this setup where the high is all about pain
Where rains on my pillow's won't stop
For loving a stranger who doesn't know how to value me.

This where it began
where it was affirmed how important you were to me
where I held you like I didn't wanna lose you.

This is where it prospered
where we let our feelings grew
hoping we can be bestfriends 'til we grow old.

This is where it ended
where I took out my heartache
after you left because I unintentionally broke a part of you.

This is where I'll start
where I will reflect on what has been
and let it all go so I can move forward.

This is where I've totally moved on.
This is where it ended.

I am a person of contradiction.

I love and hate. I open and close. I move and halt. I laugh and cry. Both at the same time.

I am the epitome of utter imperfection.

I happy and not happy about it.

There is duality in everything that I do — dark and light. It's never black or white. It's never gray. It's both at the same time.

"You're crazy about your boyfriend," mom said.

I don't deny it.
I'm head over heels,
like a moth forever attracted to the oil lamp
ready to burn just to get close.

Mom was right.
Only, you weren't mine.

And I still kept the rose you gave me
to remind me of love
and how temporary it could be.

Of course, it died.

You're killing her
With that beautiful smile
With your sweet words

You're killing her
With that sweet embrace
With the taste of your lips.

You're killing her
Coz' it was never gonna be hers to try.

You knew she was in love.
It's in her brilliant smile,
her soft giggles.

Her eyes glisten
as she listens
at the mere mention of your name.

This could be a fairytale
only you didn't feel the same.