I loved you too soon.
Fell too hard, I feel so weak
My heart can’t guard.
What a shame, for time is not the one that I can blame,
Believed to something that is supposed to be a game.
You’re like a lion that is so hard to tame,
You wont even look at me even if I call you by your name.
No matter how many competitions I win, and a genius that I became,
You will always be the trophy that I can never claim.
I wish that I was good enough,
So, you won’t drag me down, but instead just pull me up.
Pull me up from the sea of sadness.
Cuz your lie is like a water,
And I am a sinking iron hammer.
I’d like to see the end, the end where you call me ‘love.’
A fairytale that my mind made up from not giving up.
But I just realized that all of it was just a bluff.
I am so dumb for not to notice that you’re the cousin of Plod and you wanted me to stop.
The pain when you left clings to me like a pro killer,
Anxiety torments, wanting me to beg for mercy so that they can now pull the trigger
But Fear, from dying can’t be found, anywhere
Cuz I know what they’re trying to do is just a bloodless ******
Sadness holds me a hostage,
Almost made me feel that I’m a ******* garbage
It was a disaster, my worst emotional carnage.
From where does this depression arise,
Is it because the current me would not suffice?
Most fires require at least 16% of oxygen content to burn,
But give me just 1% of your attention, and I’ll have my unending yearn.
I know my sadness is nothing compared to the sorrows of the world
But what can I do? You are my universe, cuz I still believe in you, and your word.