don't have a moment to think
I just want to think
I want to cry
I want to scream
I miss the city
I miss being alone
I don't have privacy
I'm not independent
a moment
a day
I'd like it if you went away
I'll be taking the long way home
I can't sleep

what's the meaning
words mean nothing
promised me empty feelings

I learned to not speak
bite my tongue
the taste of blood is sweet

child
turn around
don't walk out
the world is full of liars
like your mother's mouth

your father is busy on a far away train
lost his brain
he won't remember you

issues
carry a pack of tissues
you're damaged
who will take the blame

bite down
harder
you won't forget
the sweet taste

they're not entirely here
disappeared
no one will care about you

love brings trouble
hate melts away
better to not feeling nothing at all

My elusive baby
is famous in my mind
he ain't too easy to find
maybe around the bend
where sun do shine
& love is free- boundless
yet divine
you can find him
writing his lines,
biding my time
& bending the mind

Bridging the gap, opening the door
between what isn't known
nor said,
but purely felt
in the heart of hearts
sepia tones & enriched shades
of bronze & gold
speak the truth louder
than the quivering lip
could ever grasp
for when the ears are open
the mouth is closed
& when the eyes are closed
the mind
is open