This will be
The end of me
This kind of love burns too bright, leaving me lying with blisters
But my mind’s spinning out of control, like I’m trapped in a twister
Yeah, I know it’ll never last
I fell too hard and much too fast
It’s like all of a sudden, I can’t catch my breath
And it’s a little risky, like I’m flirting with death
It’s the falling so hard, I know I will regret
Being lovestruck, the butterflies, and feeling so content
But you make this feel so sweet
And gravity’s already pulled me off my feet
And you stared just a little too long
Your voice is my favorite song
You’ve got starlight dancing in your eyes
A glint that reminds me of the heavenly skies
Embers burst into sparks and we might crumble to ashes
But we’ll shine brighter than the fire of a million matches
Blind the whole world, take it over by storm
Take this rain and turn it into a hailstorm
I’d love death to be this kind
No, I wouldn’t mind
If this would be
The end of me

As I perch by my window at night
Bathing in the moon’s soft silver light
I think of you
And wonder if you think of me too
Do I ever cross your mind
The one who left you behind
I wonder if you’re doing fine
I left you broken, desperate, and scared
Every minute, every second I wonder how you’ve faired
Sailing alone on a tumultuous sea
But think also of what you did to me
Hours to days, days to years
How often did I hold back my tears
You deserted me first, shattered, alone, and defeated
Without you there, my strength became depleted
Still unsure if you even cared
I, too, was beyond scared
I had no choice
I had to raise my voice
I held on tight
And gave one hell of a fight
But I offered you, too, salvation
If you only accepted my invitation
So forget the pain you feel this night
To stop and wonder who’s wrong and who’s right

She lacks the light in her eyes, the hint of a smile that I’ve come to know
There is only so much joy a body can hold
I miss her
You don’t know what it’s like up here
She seems peaceful now, at rest
More than that, love, I am overjoyed
Life was unfair to her
So it was, but that pain has died with me
She always tried to life live to its fullest
I’m more alive now than I’ve ever been
I can almost sense her here beside me
Yes, I am here; I will always be here
Almost hear her laugh, see her beautiful curls bounce as she runs
I remember that hot August day
Her temper grew until it boiled over as I chased her with the hose
I wanted it to last forevermore
She’s not the same anymore
You’re right, I am so much more
She’s not animated
There’s so much you cannot see
Upon her departure, I am lost
*Upon death’s arrival, I am found

Before we watch the sunrise
We dance amongst the fireflies
Inches away, miles apart
Only noise is the beating of my heart
Hushed tones blown away by the wind
Sideways glances as if we have sinned
She reaches for my hand
Writes our names in the sand
So temporary yet I am fixated
For this we are berated
What we feel is different than expected
They tell us our love is misdirected
But what we feel is true
For three simple words are hard to misconstrue
Suffocating in this intoxicating air
As she brushes away a strand of my hair
With each touch it becomes harder and harder to breathe
And never do I want to leave
We are together in the same room
So close I can smell her sweet perfume
The room is filled with waves of tension
Her eyes sparkle, the color of gentian
She is my secret and I am hers yet
We sing a strange duet
With all the misguided plebeians gone
We mount a hill whereon
Without a single threat
My beloved and I watch the sunset

I can sense your harsh glare
As I descend the stairs
The room is full to the brim
But your seemingly placid face is all too grim
An eerie silence chills me to the bone
Though I am anything but alone
My eyes follow you slink through the crowd
The choir voices echo loud
Now here you are, offering me a gloved hand
Which I accept upon your demand
I know not who you are
Only that you travelled from afar
With all the guests in black and white,
Basking in the glow of the chandelier light
My crimson dress is much too brazen
For this joyous occasion
You pull me ever so slightly, begging me to chase
Under the mask, I do now recall your face
My mother flirted with you many a year
Unlike many, not succumbing to fear
You lead me down a windy stair case
Making each move with elegance and grace
Deeper and deeper into darkness we descend
How strange this is how I should meet my end
It is not as I had dreamed
Without any wicked schemes
Gentle, kind, and wise
Compassion lies in those soulful eyes
You wipe away my single tear
Though I do not cry from fear,
Instead from the strange misleadings
Of those poor gents up above pleading
‘Do not take me, this I pray’
But on this warm midsummer’s day
I learned the truth about you
Nothing they say is true
You are not cruel, are not devious
Not a thing about you is mischievous
I know who you are, yet I am unafraid
Though I am much too young for this, never would I evade
Your sweet embrace
Death’s sweet embrace