No, I'm not happy
I'll smile
I'll laugh
I'll look happier than everyone
But I am fear
And that's why they run
They'll see my eyes
We're all scared of something
I'm afraid to feel

Soft lips and fair skin.
Wise mind with lovely eyes.
Fragile you are
Yet somehow strong.
Stand tall.
I know it's been long.
Just forget my love.
I'll let it rise
Like a lonesome dove.

There is no goal to reach.
There is no heaven to seek.
Codemn what they teach,
Believe what you see.

Tap my temple
Press my pen
Hope for something
Feel only lies
Lost my inspiration
In your eyes

I remember the days I cried from a memory
I remember your face when I sang you a melody
I cherish these thoughts
I'll always hold them dear
Some scars are forever
But they make my heart clear
I'd rather it to hurt
Than to be forgotten
But I wonder now
Does it matter anymore?
I know that you hate me
But I still was once yours

Not to fight
Not to leave
Not to go
Not to watch

People can be stupid
Foolish
You don't use love to save yourself
But you don't save yourself alone
You live and you love
You have to grab life by the horns
That's how you win
You fix things for yourself
And when the time comes
Someone will fix you with you
And you'll do the same
Love is about together
Not healing
Not even happiness
It's about together
Family
Friends
Enemies
Lovers
No matter what kind of love it is
Love is many as one
Forever

I've never been good at love
Or loving
Or feeling anything really.
I've felt anger
More than anything else,
But I would let myself
Fall
If it meant feeling
Something more.

I yearn for love
And the simple touch
Of one hand
In mine.

Fade with me, memories
No letters to tear
Nothing to ruin
Life alone
Life on the outside
Life in my heart
Love in my eyes
There is no reason to end anything
People, you are crazy
And because of your insanity
I love you

The pain in my skin
Makes it abundantly clear
I'm not in love with you,
Or upset,
Or jealous,
Or angry,
Nor do I hate you.
I know now
I am obsessed with you

You wake up in the morning
and breathe in the air
It's cold and polluted
It makes your heart bare
You **** the silence with a long drawn-out yawn
You kiss your loves
and leave before dawn

Silly red drink
I cannot think
****** blue knife
I took your life
Dumb purple eyes
I'm filled lies
Hungry grey bars
Prison leaves scars

Poetic tides may rise and run away.
I am buried in the words I don't say,
For the actions I don't take
Force me fake
Feelings I don't own.
I show what must be shown.

*I hope that I don't do what I did to her
To you.

I'll never tell
The tears are dry
All air is cold
Under this sky
I've grown so old
I cannot cry
My soul is sold
Alone I'll die

In times of distress
I lived unlike the best.
I followed three hearts;
Fell into fear.
Demons shrieked,
Angels cried;
Gods bled;
Devils died.
The end of all.
Fallen creation.

I feel the desire
To once again hold you close.
Good you don't feel it.

Chained to the glass
Under a knife
In a small room
Cars in my head
Trees falling down
The reflections are dead

I am not slave to my sins,
For I created them.
I am not innocent,
For I know my shame.

I am king,
For I have power...
I am judge,
For I have that right...
**no longer

There were no nights
Greater than when
We kissed.
And things are different
You are miles away
While I wait in darkness

I used to be sad at those lyrics,
But now it's really true.
Someone drove her around
The same streets that I did.

Your beauty is beyond compare.
You have eyes that shine,
And beautiful, soft hair.
If only you were mine.

I am not a strong man
Nor am I brave,
But for you I would stand;
It'd be you that I save.

Instead you have left me
And I love you today.
With your light that we see
Why was sanity the price to pay?

I saw my initials,
You wrote them there.
You say you hate me.
Go on ahead.
Don't doubt yourself,
I know I deserve it.

A cold screen can bring laughter
An old dream could bring failure
Walking on and standing still
All create or maybe ****

The deeper I bleed
The more at home I am

The more I feel
The less I become

Numbness

Simply feeling for the sake of existing
Is all I could ever know

Why do I even live?

I don't deserve my life,
Yet it's never been taken.

Perhaps it would be better if I said goodbye and bled myself dry

Songs playing
Remind me of you.
What once was,
What will never be.
Even know my love
Says, I'm sorry.
I can never forget
How selfish I was.

I am over you.
I thought I did not like you.
Now I just want more.

Pills pills
I cannot taste
Pills pills
I cannot feel
Pills pills
Down the drain
Now go on you beauties
Come turn me pale

Standing in the cold,
Afraid to wave,
Afraid to look.
I wish that I could
Wait in the freezing with you.
Maybe to bring warmth,
But instead I move past.
Instead I try to forget,
And I wonder,
Was there something left unsaid?

I wake up and go back to sleep
Alone.

I lost touch with reality.
I lost myself like fatality.
Forgetting 'bout the outcome, this album stuck on repeat.
Tired of defeat, being left as the least. Out of control,
Out of my mind,
Losing games 'cause I ran outta time.
Don't matter know more.
Would you be mine?

If in some strange way
We all shuffle off
The chains that bind us
Without losing ourselves.
Could we live with what
Was real?

Once I saw a butterfly
It was pretty and red
It felt kinda funny
The smile on my face
And it only grew
I brought that butterfly
And it was you

I poured out my heart for you
You left me
But you left your scars on my heart
Maybe I'm broken
No matter what
I'm here
I know I'm no good om my own
But I can't stop
I made a promise not to give up

What will we use?
What will will do?
What have we done?
How did this happen?
Is this the end?
Why are we empty?
Where have you gone?
Just tell me:
Why did you die?

Quiet symbols,
Empty spaces,
Tiny black holes,
Forgetting faces.
We're under pressure;
Out of time.
Broken leisure.
Boxed in mime.
We're covered in silence from head to toe.
We lost our places in the lines below.

It begins with the few
The few become many
Another few rebels
And they become many
The many grow larger
Large enough to destroy the few
The mant out weigh now
You no longer own you

I chase others to feel warmth.
I push them away to be myself.
I yearn for them to come back to me.
No matter how I grow or change,
Or how many people love me,
I feel alone,
For I always lose those people.

Bad habits
Tried to kick the problem
I fall backwards
Into something, maybe nothing
I'm in there no matter what
Must be black demons
Red hearts
Deep scars
Addiction always there
What's your drug?
Like knives, blue pills
No matter what
Anger kills
Can't fight
Won't win
Gave up
And I'm here again

Different people,
That both only know one true language:
Poetry.

A billion believers.
We're running like cheetahs.
Away from the fight
And into your arms.
They pray every night
There is no more harm.
But everyday,
The terror grows tough

It's strange how
My outward love
Destroys
Where it should
Create.

I'm too young
To understand;
I wish we never met.

Somehow in this calm,
The chaos is most beautiful.
Somehow in this song,
The ugly is the fairest.
In everyway of this joy,
The pain: the most real.
Death draws us together.
Love rips us apart.
We hate one another
Pretty, human art.

Give up
You are not a big man
I am not a man
I am here to work
I'm under everyone
Save me
No
Let me burn
I can't do this alone
I can be strong enough
Why do I fall?
I trip myself

Before I knew you

There were sad days
There were still tears
I still exploded

Keep in mind

Before you, I was an atomic bomb
Before you, I was always sad
Before you, I saw no meaning in myself
Before you, I was nothing