i look at myself
compared from then and now
and i am proud

i just am, proud

it took me so long,
to look in the mirror
and          see      myself

i felt so invisible
i basically didnt exist

im so sorry
to past me
you did not deserve to be treated so bad
by the one person, who shouldve had your back

me

when i walk into the room
eyes locked

i sit close to you
i can feel you near

gently push your hair back
i can see your eyes,  now...

shivers down my back
i can feel you here

when you realise,
that you can get out..
of any bad situation,
that you hold your world in your hands

you instantly become capable of anything

Like I said
its been a while
a tough while
a very silent one

yet completely chaotic

you won't understand
nor will I understand
what happened to make
my future look like this

so lonely and bare
so bare and lonely
so silent yet loud
I stand on my own

barely grabbing on
to the little glimmer of hope
I stand low amongst
no one

been a lonely time
a tough time
a quiet time
and a loud time

no words could help me
no social distractions
so hard to hide from your feelings

when they look your right in the face

looking me so hard in the face

I can't seem to keep my eyes open,
they burn

little by little,
one second at a time
they open up slightly
but they didn't open in time

I still stand here
so low
and so alone
but thats okay

because I guess theres still hope

A buzzing feeling
spreading from my chest
down to my fingertips

the heat in my throat
can't be washed away

vivid dreams
like every night is a full moon

feeling wearied and vigorous
all at once

this vessel can only hold so much

being afraid to explode

but maybe thats the point
to explode