I'm a penny on a train rail
I'm a balled up fist of rage
The number of my sorrows
Outnumber all my days
I've got lies in my veins
They rush faster when I smile
And for all the beds I've made
They're now coverin' up my eyes

I'm like dead people
I never got a second chance
And everything I've ever held
Was ripped right from my hands
Love she digs my grave
And hate he guards the hole
I've got five evil women's names
Tattooed 'cross my soul

I went down to the river
Where muddy water freely flows
Drowned my shallow mind
Felt my time-bomb heart explode
Above a storm-train appeared
On cloud-wheels it roared and rolled
I watched the colors spill
As it thrill-killed the last rainbow

Held a dying baby
There was somethin' about  his eyes
Made me feel some kind of feelin'
That cornered me inside
Sometimes I cry out at the moonlight
Just like a wolf out in the cold
Sometimes I pray for the daylight
Sometimes I pray the night unfolds

It's hard to keep my thoughts
from straying far away

I try, I try not to fall back
That reality is too real for me

If I accept myself
Love will follow
That's what you said

But I've felt nothing
no longer
not even sorrow
nor pain

I feel empty
I can hear the echo in my soul
When I attempt to speak

The end is near
Fear is far
My soul is black
And oh so bleak

Too late for saving
Fold me up
Push my skin
leave me craving

Love

I just need a little time
To myself

I love and I live
I need help

Come home to me
I am home

Come home to me
I'm alone

I've spent my life trying
to be normal, to be wanted, to be here
Now I see that  life is full
But only if you be

Be present, in the moment
Be true, be strong and wise
Refuse to make a change
Just so you'll be liked

Don't feel obliged to stay
There's the door, be on your way
I'd rather you go sooner than later
Save me some pain, please

I'll be ok on my own
Familiar and comfortable
So please be on your way

Unless perhaps you'd like to stay?

Placed on the spot, People walking by
Eyes shift to my direction,
Snickering and smiling
My anxiety rising
Trying to grip reality,
My superficial temple artery starts pounding, as my heart rate rises.

I can't take this any more I must find the door.

Tearing at my heart
Ripping me apart
The air just isn't enough
I can't breath
A hand squeezing my heart
The pains of anxiety
I don't know how to deal
Slowly my head starts to ache
All because of my mistake