holding on to what we've been
is like keeping a flower that died
and all my tears are water I'm wasting
trying to bring it back to life

I don't beg you to stay when you choose to go
But you should remember
who fought the waves that tried
to wash away your colours back then
It wasn't those perfect shiny girls
you hang out with now
It wasn't him
you spend the nights texting with now
It was me, and I almost drowned myself keeping you above water
And now you learned how to swim,
and you don't need me anymore
I'm just a part of the past you want to forget
So go ahead, I'll be okay,
Done with hiding
under this sparkling blue surface
Done with holding my breath
You got to make it through the next storm on your own
Because I won't spend my life in freezing water waiting for you to need me.

And no one ever tries
to look behind the light
'cause beauty shines so bright
makes everybody blind
they don't care what's inside
the chaos in her mind
a world that's self-designed
where everyday's a fight
Can't reach across that line
can't keep away the night
still she will be alright
one time

And maybe I should just accept
we had our try, I don’t regret
Things start and end and life goes on
You came, you stayed and now you’re gone
Just wish I had a few days more
finding out if you’re who I’m made for
But I see it’s better this way around
cause you shouldn’t force love where it won’t be found

You were so broken
that I destroyed myself
trying to fix you.

Now I'm the one falling apart
while you found someone else to hold you.

take away my fear
that I'll not reach the stars
take away my thoughts
about how nothing lasts
wash away my silence
the words caught inside me
wash away the past to see
the girl that I could be

And yes, it feels like I’m falling apart
trying to hold everything together

Tell me what’s the point in trying
when no one seems to see,
What’s the point in listening
when no one speaks to me?

Why am I standing at your door
knowing you won’t open it
Why do I try to get your love
knowing there’s not left a bit?

I’m aware I should stop hoping
cause I put my dreams too high
I’m aware I’ll have to stay on earth
cause I’m not made to fly

you tried to catch a shooting star
and didn't see you were the one falling

You say you can’t see me
It’s not like I’d hide
Just standing in the shadow
That’s caused by your light

You've always been a closed door
which I was standing in front of
hoping you'd let me in
but some doors are just
not meant to open
because our ways
do not continue
behind them.

and though we didn't move
the space between you and me grew
just like a universe expanding
and all those words unspoken
are galaxies seperating us

so you made me choose
between losing myself and losing you

and I'm still here

And when we leave
the universe forgets.

But I won’t.

when we met there were those forces
that kept pulling us together
now I know it has been gravity
between matter
and antimatter

so both we jumped
but we forgot
that you could fly
and I could not