Marissa Kay

Marissa Kay Nov 2014

Its beginning to feel a lot like Christmas

Can we choose what to remember
For if so I choose this moment
Although I share this air with no other being
And weep and cry in the seconds before
I know notice these lights that lie on green
And the reflection of them on the ceiling
Now no guilt clogs my throat
Only the sudden urge to sing
A song for the snow
A tune just to feel how beautiful it is
That I'm breathing

Cheesy
But seriously

Marissa Kay Nov 2014

Neverman

For as long as I live
I will know the coldness of hands
Without another to shade the piercing wind

I will imagine the shortness of breath
The slight meaningful movements
That turn my cheeks red

For as long as I live
I will dream of slowed moments
And deny it so
Because never will I know
The reality of it at all

Nov 2014

Eva Ellen

You not I

You and I will have no end
because there never was a beginning

You fall in love like it's some trend
because you're looking for the one like me

I am helping you get on the mend
because she will never know you like I do

I am the one on who you can depend
because we're as thick as thieves, forever

I am doing a backwards bend
because I need you to notice I want more

You have the gall to call me friend
because you can't see I'm falling for you

You are looking for someone new to apprehend
I'll keep waiting, trying to pretend

#love #poem #poetry #sad #hurt #friend #secret #crush #notice #friend-zone

Marissa Kay Nov 2014

Dont look up, love

I'll look long enough
In hope you'll get the hint
Cause I've witnessed a whole other world
But never released it
I swear I was gonna tell you
Until I was caught off guard
I swear I was gonna show you
Until we got cut short

Dont look up love,
You might see it in my eye
That everyday I wake alone
Is every day I live a lie.

Marissa Kay Nov 2014

Love and War

You waited until you could see the whites of my eye
You let me drag that far
So you could aim clearly and unmistakeably hit me cold flat in the heart

Now are you satisfied that I burned all of my passion
Just to be belittled once I reached the top?
And does it make you feel better that you only used one bullet
Barely broke a sweat
To rip me of any hope I've ever had

Marissa Kay Oct 2014

I don't cry

I only tighten my throat and bite my teeth
My toes curl and my stomach pulses but tears remain immune to gravity
resting in the space behind my eyes

So without tears there's no proof.
No cold detail of how much I need you

Every part of everything I've ever felt lies in the isolation of the sparkled eye
Yet- how do you untrain a heart thats lived its whole life teaching it's outside to lie

Marissa Kay Oct 2014

Effortless ... Lesseffort

None of this makes sense to a heart starved of its mess
All these words are just scrambled alphabet for a soul thats been swallowed hole