Suddenly my heart comes back from it's long sleep, but just to face pain and a strange emptiness. As if I had been missing something, you.The agony of knowing we are so close but can never be together leaves in my throat the oh so known sore of unshed tears, because every day since I knew of your existence it has been there, reminding me of the world that separates us from each other.I love you with every inch of my broken heart, and yet we could never be together, because reality doesn't mix well with fantasy.But knowing you, changed my whole existence, that's why my world seems grey now, and I walk around with apathy, like something's dead inside of me. This doesn't make me proud, how could you love a ghost?Smiles appear in my face to hide the excruciating pain that is not having you to share everything with.  But life goes on, days pass me slowly as only a sad soul can feel.It takes my best effort not to go insane and start confusing the two worlds I now live in...I don't want to re-enact Miguel de Cervantes'  most famous character. But I love you. I will always love you. And if it's only at night when I fall into Morpheus' arms that we can be together, then I shall be there and wait for you every night in my dreams, for the rest of my life,  we belong to each other, always.

So yes, I hated you.
I hated your "whys",
your questioning eyes
and their tone of blue.

I hated your witty remarks,
how you are always right.
Your passion for flight
and what you think about sharks.

I hated you holding hands with her,
that toxic laugh she had
how when she flipped her hair you'd go mad...
It was just to much for me to bear.

But I realized I could not hate you
You're smart, funny, good-looking
sweet, athletic and amazing at cooking
I could only but love you.

So I was happy when it ended,
but another came along
And I thought "he'll see he's wrong"
But all you saw in her was "splendid".

It crushed me,
movies and ice-cream did no good
and I found myself asking if I should...
but in your future I saw no "we" with me.

Believe me, I tried to go back and hate you,
to think only about your flaws
but for whatever the cause,
I saw only virtue.

We started talking, it was like a balm
I was done falling,
you had me in your palm.
and for some reason, not knowing...

You followed me down,
It was fun see you falling,
I felt I was winning,
That I had made a touchdown.

And down we were happy
not without scratches,
but still, happy.

I´m so glad I found you
I'm glad I don't hate you,
I love you.

She used to smile
to really smile
she used to love life.

But then one day,
From nowhere,
her life compleatly changed.

"I've got to be strong"
She said to herself
and so, her heart she locked away.

She was strong for years,
but as time went by
she started to fear

Her feelings wanted fredom
so she opened her heart for a little while
and then they came pouring...

Shouting and bitting
screaming and demanding attention
she couldn't take the preasure

So she wrote a note to her loved ones
and with tears in her eyes
she swallow the death pills

But her sister saved her
she went to get help
and they helped her

The fellings are strong
but now she knows,
she knows she is stronger.