i had a friend once,
and she taught me
not to say "i love you too,"
because it sounds false and inauthentic,
and little white lies are worse than the cold, hard
truth.
i had a friend once,
and she taught me
that you don't have to do anything;
it's simply a matter of whether you should
or shouldn't.
i had a friend once,
and she lived in a small, boring town
with small boring people.
i had a friend once,
and she was not a small, boring person.
i had a friend once,
and she hated herself,
every last inch of her,
but she still always knew
how to make me smile.
i had a friend once,
and she would always reference books
or music
or movies,
because to her,
the real world just wasn't as appealing.
i had a friend once,
and i left her.
she stayed.
she waited.
i'm sure her hope wavered at times,
but she waited still.
and i came back,
only to leave again.
she didn't stick around this time, though.
so, you see,
i had a friend once,
and she taught me
to think deeply,
to live freely,
and to love truly.
i had a friend once.
she's gone now.
(a.m.)
idk.