we unleashed
a roomfull
of energy
didn't we
our songs
brief anthems
for happy strangers
the floor
rocked, bounced
under spinning bodies
we did that
we did
then spent
we left the stage
sweat wet
and hoarse
applause
in our ears
aglow
aglow
waiting
for the consequences
and finding
there were none.

i hid cigarette
cartons from
my parents as
well as yours
because i knew
it was what you
wanted because
it was what they
abhorred.

© Matthew Harlovic

So I sit and hope for it to be over,
Praying that I'll remain sober;
As I overlook the sunrise
Watching it's slow demise
Atop a scenic mountainside.
I'd ask myself over and over, 'why-
You found love with someone else
Yet I found myself begging for help
Only to bear that I've fallen silent
of always being in complete reliant
On your shoulders when I needed to cry
And your warm words when I wanted to die'.

I cast my eyes on the sunset
Watching all that it begets,
Only to realise no matter how
That simple yet quotable vow
We promised to each other
Of being eternally written lovers,
Yet we disparagingly fall apart
Unable to mend pieces of hearts
Crushed by the torrential waters
Into minimal multiple quarters.

I wanted you so bad to turn back,
Yet you left without ever looking back
And I had hoped I didn't see you walk away;
For that moment is seared into my memory even today.

Show me the path
That's narrow and straight
I'll put on my shoes
And be on my way
I'll turn to the blues
And tell them to stay
If my shoe strings come loose
I'll leave them where they lay

There won't be a thing
Holding me back
I'll throw over my shoulder
A single backpack
With nothing in it
As there'll be nothing I lack
As I follow in life
This chosen path

I'm pulling on myself, it's dangerous,
How long left till we become strangers
I sit in my room with an inkling of hope
That it'll be as simple as 'hit the road-
Because there isn't us anymore'
But simple is overrated because
I have my backs against the door
Yet still grabbing at what we had before
But I should have known before the fall
So I'm begging myself to walk through
'Find someone else you can talk to'
I urge myself, hiding from any sign of help
Maybe this time it'll be a little lot easier
'Just stop everything, stop pleasing her-
Because no matter how much you beg
There's no love between the two of you left'.

So I guess it comes down to a natural reaction
I'll fall flat on my back repeating "it's over"
Convincing myself for some kind of closure.

I'll give another chance to be purely honest
I'm sorry I couldn't stay true to my promise.


To the girl I once loved.
-Goodbye.

From a guy with demons in his head
Trying all his best to just forget.
From a guy struggling to move on
I'll treasure the grounds you walked along.