acquiescently.
If you pull my reins
I will buck.
If you use the crop
you’re going drop.


I’m not going
soberly.
I’ll kick my hoofs up
And throw you off
until you land in my water trough.


I’m not going
quietly.
I will snort; and I will neigh.
But I will never pull your sleigh.

I don't want to be me anymore,
But I don't want to be anything.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore

Sometimes,
I wish,
I were the boy,
You talked to me about.

It's been three years
Today she is saying "yes" on white
It's been three years
And I'm at home trying to remember why there was even a fight

i need to check the chains
make sure they’re tight enough
it’s too hard
i’m falling too fast
this shouldn’t be happening
i need to stop
before it gets bad
it’s already bad
who am i kidding
im hurtig myself
i shouldn’t be doing this

i need to talk to you
there’s so much to say
but i can’t find the words
my mind’s going crazy
every aspect is bad
every situation gets worse
i can’t do this own my own
i need you to help
get me out of this mess
i need you to help me
get me out of my mind
i’m scared
i’m hurting myself
and everyone i love
i can’t do this anymore
you need to help me get out of here

4 years. We did it.

4 years. I did it.

13 years. I am not what they said I was.