Lets talk about the elephant in the room
Its dark and scary and likes to consume.
Towering over me with her ghoulish smile
She knows everything even your denial
Comsuming your heart and even your smile
Casting her shadows is ever so vile
Her name is depression and she will never go away.
Just hides in my  darkness just waiting to play.

Broken ship lost in a stormy sea
You were my lighthouse
but your flame died out for me.

For you to truly open up the door and welcome yourself in has to be the greatest achievement and this is where your story begans.

All this emotion crashing down like waves
I feel all warm like a nice summers day
I cant keep lying to myself on my feeling for you
Every time im with you they burn bright blue
I dont understand why you just dont leave him
Then again you just like the attention that im given and im always caving in.

No matter what free will choice you make
it always put you on the road you were meant to take

Your my slice of heaven in this hell on earth.

You Stoke the fire that blazes inside my heart.

My heart
Its currently pending

I crave the escape from the reality my head creates.

I loved you with all that hate i had for the world
still do but sadly you broken my heart in two.
I wonder if that ever meant anything to you.

The moment you walked into the room
I knew i was doomed
I could see in by the look in your eyes
I did my best not to care
The reality of what i done was in the air
I could see it in your stare
I still dont know how you feel or what we will be
But i never ment to put you in that situation
im glad we can still be friends in the end.

You hummed your song as i sang along
As you carried on this lovely tune
I was whisked away that very day
You hummed that that lovely tune.

You are my lighthouse in this stormy sea of darkness.

You will never enjoy life if you dont come of cruise control.

She broke me down piece by piece
Untill their was nothing left underneath
Jokes on her ive been here before
Still has my exit markings on the door
I have a manual stashed someplace
Itll take me a while to clean up this place.

Ill take the view of your eyes
over a scenic ocean view any day.

My perspective melts off these rose covered walls
Where i sit and play in its puddles and all the troubles it has cause

lost out in a daze
I've been strung out for days
life it doesn't seem to faze
but the pain it still stays

Tangled up with 2 serpents unable to break from their grip
I'll succumb to them both
maybe this old dog will learn a new trick

Its a long road into the unknown
All your insecurities & all of your fears
All seem to be there and never disappear
Constant battle between the love and hate
Should you press forward or become part of what aint

Riding a paved rainbow
To a *** of misery
That life has promised me.

Taken away to the darkest place
Where ive been trying to make my escape
Everytime i run into fate
Who brings me back to the same old place

Youre a favorite song that comes on the radio
On a really terrible day.

Trapped in this prison with no way to escape
I look to the heavens to examine my fate
The road ahead will be tough and full of self hate
Tired of fighting the brick wall in my face.
To end it now and bring myself home
Or sit on this thrown depressed and alone.

The emptiness i feel is becoming more full
My emotions are becoming more dull
I have a glazed over darkness in my eyes
I hear satan calling me asking if i need a ride
I think for this moment i will take that ride.

Ill never admit defeat
I will always get back on my feet
As long as im breathing
Ill be victorious and ill make you bow at my feet.

Tell her im okay
Tell her im fine
ive just lost my mind
Thats all
Ill soon to come around
As soon as i can find my feet
To put them on the ground.

My heart was broken
Shattered in two
I quit believing what was true
Ive lost all hope
This is true
Ive about lost my head
All of this
And i  say all of this
Is because of you.

You used to always compliment yourself in the mirror with the biggest smile on your face.
Now you cant even look yourself in the eye
Without an ounce of disgust rolling from you lips.
What happened to you and who broke you?
You were the strongest person i ever meet and you faced each day not having any regrets.
You were the one i looked up to and the one i strived to be.
Now you cant even make it out of bed without suicidal thoughts ringing through your head.
What happened to you and who broke you?
I need that man back.
With out you i am broken and full of regrets and self hate.
I hope you make it through this and you find a way to fix yourself.

Your gone like yesterday & your memories they haunt me
Like the blood stains on the carpet
From where you shot me
I've been half a live for a year
Not a day goes by that I dont shed a tear
I'm filled with regrets on how wreckless I was
I let you slip threw the cracks just as fast as yesterday comes.

Ill try and be sincere with the conversation we are having here
But producing it genuinely might leave you
crying from here

Eyes so bright has me feeling like a deer in head lights

Lost somewhere between here and there
Will i ever really make it there
Honestly really dont care

My heart you mended
Couldnt be more splendid
A whole new look on life
From your perspective
Got me out of my blues
And on to something new
For you im thankful
For you im grateful.

I wonder who will ever win the war i wage against myself.

You are a contradiction running through my head

For the mear moments of flight
youre above everyone
nobody can tell you different.

Thrown into the drakness where i fought to survive
Holding onto hope like im on the frontlines
Theirs no denying all the pain inside
So i make another cut just to feel alive.
They say pain is for the weak, id have to disagree
but the pain in loving you gots me all shades of fifty
Ah no no
Ill tell you about my sickness & how i feel inside
Itll make your skin crawl while you run in hide

A little bit of trickery will help you in the lands of misery

My delusions are becoming real
my life has become so surreal
When I try and go to sleep at night
I Fight the demons that keep me up all night
Stuck in my head feeding my own sickness that I've breed
My hunger grows even though demons they must be fed
im starving them until
We all coexist inside my head.

I pull the bottle of the shelf
Covered in dust
I twist off the cap
I pour me a glass
Heres to me
For finally being alone
At last.

Im feening like a ****** off just one kiss
I didnt know you could catch feeling like this
Waiting to get my next fix
My drug girl done ran off
How did i end up like this

Ive walked this road plenty of times
Ive seen it far in wide
Hollow, quite barren and its open wide
I never thought id be back here
Wallowing in all my fears
Oh the old memories
all those tears ive cried
this road it wont break me
I will not let it raddle or shake me
In return ill let it shape me
Oh for this road it will not break me.

I wish I had a voice to angry a population
To bring together a divided nation
But here I am just a slave to the corrupt system
Stand together to fight an injustice regime
Over throw the government and instill
Civil beliefs
Were tired of the fear you try and deploy
Turning this country into communism
Stripping us of basic human rights
Give us our liberty or prepare for a fight
There our millions if not a billions who wont go down with out a fight.