run nimbly attempt
fall as whispering
((gauche))
why? I still run
why? I still laugh
why? still I tumble
and scream
((gauche))
fit tightly to the mood
run as far as you can
fall as hard as you want
((gauche gauche gauche))
compressed thoughts
continue to swirl
energetic boredness follows
why? I still live

i missed it! it just has to be secret!

its like a healthy drug!

plush lips
soft as can be
taste like candy
baby pink
kiss me again

scream! fog separates
announce that you are here!
whatever you do
don't cry!
scream! i understand
announce your prescence!
please
don't cry!
help me understand
hot tears are everywhere
i dont understand

dizzy
chills burnt amber skies
tress grew
grew!
green surrounding
finally home
amber skies like candles

i see you!
dive under the concrete road
under the dirt tightly packed
there i am!
rise above the translucent skyline
up up up
there i am!
i care for you
but
you don't care about me
i love you
but i should hate you

i am a rigid,
pale stone
and the water that washes over me/
that is life.
sometimes the flow is-fast a
nd sometimes...it is slow
but I refuse to let
it play me
though the water affects me
(it rushes over me, smoothing out som,e , but not all of my edges)
it is not my master.

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CARDBOARD HOUSE/walls so high
FLOORS ARE TIRED AND WEEP AND SIGH
SOFT CARPET soaked with blood and guts
FOLLOW ME INTO the HOUSE
slowly see PAINT CAKED ON walls and doors and tables
delightfully terrifying
COFFEE TABLES....legs fall me tremble
WELCOME HOME

love love love

ivy twirling up my legs

beautiful walls building around me

you caused me to fall yet you caught me

enlighten me

is this really love?

faded yellow sun crawls up th
e earth
hello morning
baby plants are inspired

.

the past either means
nothing or everything
nothing for the future to be built upon
nothing for it doesn't matter
nothing for focus on what's to come
but everything
everything to relive the tears and
crys of delight
everything for those lost to the grave
everything for knowledge that you protect

I want to read a poem that takes me from feeling nothing
white
to feeling anything at all

dressed to the nines
you wore only pearls
moonlight dipped around your
deep collarbones
lips smeared
a curve that is far from a smile
but a satisfied frown
emerged
one dog
then two
quite a few more
with lace round their necks
and a smooth hint of gore
they barked silently, painfully
left them at ease
they dropped to the ground
you dropped to your knees

fingers of paper
hair made of lace
mouth closed with safety pins
all a closed space
eyes made of copper
to see only clear

hug the sun
burn
falling in
to the water
drown
burrow in the earth
suffocate
isn't it funny how the most stimulating things are the most harmful?
no

love is desperately trying not to care
because they never did
i mean they did at one point
who knows what happened

i deserve you begging at my feet.

i deserve you showering me and only me in love.

because i matter
because i care.

i deserve better.

i deserve your dumb jokes that everyone else hates.

i deserve to get to put up with you.

i deserve you telling me youre sorry

no

not telling. showing.

i deserve you letting me know i am strong and beautiful and amazing.


i deserve your smiles.

feel a wave crash in my brain

electricity sparks and I'm excited

my hands shake and I grin

my eyes filled with life

drops of water fall from my heart
to the page

filled with thoughts and emotion and hope and a message longing to be heard

every time he texts me my stomach hurts?
but he talks to everyone the same way

i feel like im walking on eggshells again

my heart beats
in a frenzied pattern
I want to run
I want to scream.
not scream.
yell
but that's all I do
I have to keep exploring, moving, trying to make sense of anything
everything
your life and mine
the stars are silent but I am free to speak

a drop of precious purple sweetness falls
falls into my stained gray cup
glow into the dark
a smile erupts onto my illuminated face
:blue and tired:
tall frame standing in a pink of sick pink moonlight
cheers!!!!!!!
to a story unfinished!
metal hits my quivering lips
cherubs swim around my nose:
swallow death completely whole

beautiful words taste vile
so why not spit them out
you scream
because you can
swallow them and have them sear your stomach
churn w/ lost hopes

she swiftly flows alone along a marble corridor

white and sharp.

stars point down straight at her
she looks up and smiles

she's brighter than them

roll the dice
in vain


she paid a high price
to shine so bright

she'll never rest with the stars

I AM A LIVING BREATHING HUMAN AND I FEEL SO DEEPLY AND LOVE SO MUCH

BUT YOU CANNOT CLAIM THAT WHENEVER YOU WANT

AND LEAVE ME IN A PUDDLE WHENEVER YOU WANT

AND BE WITH WHOEVER YOU WANT

WHENEVER YOU WANT

WHILE I MOURN THE LOSS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL COME BACK
BUT ONLY TO VISIT
JUST A QUICK VACATION
A QUICK ESCAPE

"i always thought youd be there"

YOU CANNOT! RUN OFF WITH WHOMEVER AND EXPECT ME TO BE THERE WHEN YOU NEED SOMEONE TO FALL BACK ON.

AND IT HURTS. MORE THAN ANYTHING KNOWING I WANT TO BE THERE. I WANT TO HELP. I WANT YOU TO LET ME LOVE YOU.

BECAUSE I DO. SO ******* MUCH.

i am the only once who cares. these girls do not care. your friends do not care. your mother and father care. but i have consistently let you fall on me. and i was crushed in the process

street food smell
- laying in bed in the dark
- music that you resonate with
- candles warming you
- running down the street but never in a race
- being held by someone who accepts you

her lush hair falls to her cheeks
red and LIGHT
light that rushes through the flashlight pointed at HER
her face wrinkles and she CRIES
tears take a leap of anything but FAITH
faith that she won't CRY
face curled into a fleshy BALL
ball of skin and SCRATCHES
scratches got there? who knows HOW
how to COPE
cope with dreams being torn and tossed and thrown and lost

some things stir in her stomache
dragging her into her half-dead dreams
eyes open wider than normal as she plummets down down
                                 down
some ways between her origin and destination
she changed her mind
she wanted flakes of 19 butterfly wings to surround her 'blue and green'
and they do
engulfed in a flutter
she rises
~sometimes things are so easy~

aslee
p
dripping into a timeless dark
quietly
silently
slipping into a mindless dark
breathing heavily can't breath

icarus is i
and i flew to close to the sun.

the more love you give the more you take from yourself.

that's alright when the other does the same. you are refilled.

but get too carried away, get to involved, care to much, you each take more than you deserve

you empty each other and scrape out their love till it's gone.

who would be happy then.

pour love down my throat.

only your love.

let me float on it.

i will be happy.

let me drown in it.

i will survive.

let me hold onto it.

please.

:)

i can't figure out if i want him to want me or not.

maybe i'll never know.

actually - i know i want him to want me. but if i had him i'd be miserable and so would he.

i want him though he's the worst thing for me.

missing him.
but not who he is now.
it's missing someone who will never be again.
like part of him died.

i don't even like you
why am i only happy around you
i  am trapped

i think i might be a horrible person
but i didn't know
^ that is not meant to be an excuse

i am trying to be more humble

but how do you fix yourself when you didn't know you needed to be fixed?

i'm not sure about anything anymore

I need to stop being afraid to have feelings
I need to start understanding that other people have feelings that affect me
I need to start showing my love
I need to be nice