blue bubbles drift to the ceiling

just below your soft nose a diamond rests

sleep soundly sleep
sleep

twinkle in your eye

bright sharp click click
you fall
down to smashed bitten gleaming
peices
of ringed plaster.
I scream
I'm free
now that you're gone

sparks of gray in your
eyes

tapestries loom over
the candelabra

as a grim smile
drifts onto your welcoming
face

your hands shake as
you
rub them together
releasing deadly energy

I drown in my mind
and dont mind
a thing

as the would turns upside down
and you cackle

I have never cared

but you got me this time

my hair sways below me
suspended in the air

my eyelids succumb to
Gravity

I watch everything

you strip me of
my limbs

I scream
beg
plead

fire on my mind
fire on my legs

gold and jewels
shoved down my throat

go out with a bang
I said

bluebells
.
bluebells tower
over
the ants
.
drip tiny
drops
drop
s
of water
.
the swingset creaks
the bluebells sway
sky so cloudy
perfect day
.
my face
smacks the dirt
.
my knees start to bleed
.
the bluebells sway
and
observe
.
my tears
.

i slowly pull
the moon
out...of the sky
from one murky depth
to another

then (I hang on) to the stars
and (gently fall)
with them

the rush in my stomach
ever-present
yet I'm cal
m

ruby red
dreams last
until morning
your heart shaped scar isn't hiding today
pop a
cherry into your little mouth
and be real as can be
for today

i color over my sins with rose-stained bruises
blueberries fall out of my mouth
shine caresses my sharp slack jaw
scribble on the pain until it turns violet
paint my dreams on my hands
shaking in the green winter

tiny fairies
wings beating like
my heart

quick
and
soft

tiny fairies
twirling
in
the light wind

leaving butterfly kisses
around your neck

tiny fairies
pouring sunshine
onto
the rocks

watching over
the lost
and forgotten

tiny fairies
planting seeds of
joy
and
sprouts of
happiness

these plants
won't water themselves
green

i am blocked out
by you
they don't love me
I don't love you

love triangle?
not this time.
hate.

the grass grows
around me

as you stomp it
down

they follow suit

glimpse at the odd
the hidden from you

faeries dance in water pools
golden light quivers
sparkles

time is nonexistent
AWAKe

birds sit still
and sing lovely noise white noise

eat peaches and pears and strawberries
live
live live freely
uncontained
cry for joy
not a big deal
you are happy happy happy joyous perfect sit still or you
can run like me

when you laugh it echoes
never stops
equivalent to years

white blue foam waters play
and dance




there is but one flaw in this world
where are you
i scream

the birds flutter away
the river pauses, midway lapping onto a rock
silence's ears perk

WHERE ARE YOU
INEEDYOU
PLEASECOMETOME

!gray skies!
light rain trickl
ing,
falling from my fingertips

my mind is finally silent,
empty
yet filled with peace

i can just lay
there.
perfecting the nothingness
that allows me to
stay
still

butterflies of all colors
take off

flowers in every stage
blooming
budding
dead

there is music
and white noise

and the most beautiful
voices!
yet they belong to no one

just the skies

my teeth chatter
but not from the cold
I am warm
I am still
I am living for the first time
in this comfortable nighttime
I don't have to care
for a second
what is there to care about?
I stare into the trees
and the outside
I am barely safe from
but safe all the same
I am breathing
I am crying
just because it feels good
just because I FEEL at all
lightning in a bottle
I am so still
your music is playing softly and yet it's so present
I am so alive
I don't understand
but I understand some
and that's
GOOD ENOUGH
at least for right now
I am living at last

i may not be good now
but look how far ive come
don't go back
just keep going