drink in my hand.
laughter fills the room,
as the band on stage cracks a joke.
inhaling the drug fumes.

this addiction is only temporary.
it keeps me bright,
it makes me forget all the weight i carry.
despite what i feel in the next hour.

i make it home,
laying alone in my bed.
those haunting feelings come back to roam.
they will never leave your head.

no matter how many drinks,
the drugs,
all of the parties,
bars…

at the end of the day,
you still feel like you’re shrinking.
there’s no one to lug you back.
your heart isn’t at ease.
there are still scars.

a.b.

walking down the wet pavement,
rain clouds creating more than puddles,

can’t withstand such abasement,
she wishes absence of those troubles

feeling enslavement in her own mind,
the world doesn’t understand her struggles

a.b.

there’s not enough time in the day
to hear you speak,
or spit out all of the words i want to say.

every time he says my name,
i can’t help but smile
and get that feeling in my chest.
the good kind,
you want around for awhile.

no thoughts in my head,
other than him
and every single sweet word he said.

a.b.

long mornings,
even longer nights.

figures forming,
terrifying sights.

she can’t escape her demons,
they’ll always come back.

everyday is just a lurking feeling,
they’re always going to attack.

a.b.

i admired you from afar.
you’re completely unaware,
of how lovely you are.
i can’t do anything but stare.

you catch a gaze,
our smiles soften.
my heart is set ablaze.
i wish i could feel this way often.

although this just begun,
i’m falling fast.
i’d pick you over anyone.
i hope this feeling lasts.

a.b.

beautiful brown eyes,
i’m lost in you.

mesmerizing like the night skies,
you’re the best view.
words cannot express
how breathtaking you truly are.
i can’t help but obsess.
throughout all the darkness,
you’re the brightest star.

beautiful brown eyes,
i wish you knew how much i like you.

a.b.