so you've been thinking about it?

great!

ive been thinking about it too.


for 3 years.


i dont say anything because i know you dont like me like that.


i know you dont

so dont lie.



i-


things would change though.

id be able to call you my gf.

my everything.


these moments we share,

could be our moments.

our memories.



but.


they arent :)

(...if we’re really being honest...)
it hasn’t been
   /the best of times/
now has it?

met her first.

got here first.

loved her first.

hugged her first.

watched her cry first.

comforted her first.

saw her first.

cuddled with her first.

played games with her first.

spoke with her first.


me.

i did.


and everyone else came.


and i lost her.

you left.

have you gotten home safely?

i miss you.

i want your hugs again.



please come back soon...

before it gets worse...

I lost myself at age 7.
I crawled into bed and then disappeared.
my childhood behind me—
erased.
set on fire.
all it took was one touch for it all to burn down.
no more trust.
no more love.
no more innocence.
gone.