your distance
makes me
realize
how much
i love you

nobody will ever compare
you've left your mark on me
a scar I have to wear
where once you held me sleep
though tonight I lie awake
wishing you were here
no more smiles for me to fake
I have released my first tear
if you were to see me now
I wonder how you'd react
would you feel bad for how
you lied to disguise the fact
or would you carry on
vanishing out of sight
dragging yourself along
wishing you had said goodnight

& as the days drag on without you, I continue on my way hoping you'll return.
there is no significance to my train of thought, it is the apprehensive rage that has taken over. the emptiness without you has left me bewildered. you were my refuge from the life I now live & since you've left there are no more escapes. you've concealed yourself away from me & my happiness went with you. I no longer know how to pretend I'm doing fine without you. i miss you so much

So maybe he touched my soul
And claimed it was old
Stole it
With honest intent
To never return it to my body

So maybe he touched my hips
And sank his teeth into my lips
Ripped them
With honest intent
To never hear me speak

So maybe he drank my tears
And extracted every fear
Before walking
With honest intent
To leave me dehydrated

you hurt me
with your eyes
you hurt me
with your words
you hurt me
with your style
you hurt me
with your absence
you hurt me
every time
yet
i am so glad
that
you once thought
to HEAL ME
IN MY DREAM.....

I miss you so bad right now,
Like so bad
I want you ,
Now

still trying
to heal
the pain
that you
left
once upon
a time