I dont have doubts about us,
what we've built these five years,
what we've gained these last two.
I dont worry about what people say
or how they see us,
because they dont know what we really are,
what we have been through together.
I dont have any fears about what the future holds
or how it will all end...
because I know you'll still beside me,
holding my hand and kissing my forehead,
reassuring me that our love is as deep as it was when we first met.

Even when it rains,
even in the storm...
I know you'll still be there with me
and I know I will stand by you through it all.
I know you'll still look me in my eyes and tell me you love me,
that you'll never leave me,
kissing me 30 times,
making me laugh outrageously like you always do.

Even when it seems like the rain wont stop and all is lost,
even when the storm keeps on coming,
I know you'll be there still loving me.
Because I Love You.

the past is forever the past,
nothing can be changed about it .
it cannot be altered --- the mistakes you've made...
are forever your mistakes.
the memories that you have of your mistakes
will forever haunt your soul ---
the small pieces that are left of you ---
forever.
the scratches, the bruises, the scars you've made,
the blood that's been spilled into a pool
will flood your mind...
drown you from the inside
until you have nothing left to lose in life.
the despair you feel,
the pain that you feel will consume the rest of you,
the pieces that you needed to keep.
you're forever gone.
there's no more of the person
you thought you were,
the person you wanted to be.
you have reaped what you've sowed ---
you've planted thorned roses.

sweet silence drips that night
then, you walk in the room so smoothly with your song
afloat the waves of the atmosphere.
so entrancing your song is,
and even at this moment ---
im still humming your melody.

I fear for my life
because my life
won't fear for itself.
You fear for your life
because your life
can't fend for itself.

as I sit here, watching this door in the dark,
my mind wanders to what just happened.
my mind blanks out and replays everything that
was said in that one instant of that long night.
on everything, I regret every word, every loud,
disgusting word I yelled at you.
I know you were somehwere
feeling the same way.
I know you were somewhere fuming with heat and sorrow, wanting to come home.
but I knew you probably wouldnt,
since you know what I would have more to say.
But tonight... if you came back...
I would say nothing.
I wanted you back home,
safe with me, with the little family you have in me,
where you know I love you no matter what.
I burned a hole in the door that night,
hearing myself breathe, my heart jumping at every sound that passed my ears.
after an hour, my heart gave up on looking
so I rolled one and turned on the tv to drown the room with sound until I could forget.
I went to the kitchen and looked in the fridge ---
you bought me my favorite ice cream yesterday
and when I looked at the tub... I wanted to drown
in my own hot tears that dripped down my face.
I snatched it and sat back down,
still anticipating that you would open the door.

after two movies and a show noone new about,
I gave up on listening,
I gave up on you coming home.
I slipped into a sleep that was uneasy but still
comfortable to my hot chest.
I laid there on the couch, half drowned
in ice cream and **** smoke.
my mind drifted to you and a future without you,
I drifted to a world where we werent we,
I shivered in the thought and when I could take
no more ... I popped up in a sweat,
and in my chair... was you.