Its hard to leave,
but its harder to stay.
I feel caged with you,
I feel like a beaten prisoner.
You need to let me go,
let us go because we cant both survive this,
this lie we call love,
happiness and truth.
I love you,
I will be there for you always and forever,
but let me go.
I cant breathe,
Im gasping for freedom,
an you are the only one that can provide it.

We all are different,
We all have a certain talent
That sets us apart from the world around us,
But we also like to put each other down,
And tell each other that our talents are unimportant,
That they aren't special, or unique, or special,
That we all need to just be the same,
And “fit” in with the world.
That s not true.
That’s the complete opposite of what we need to do,
What we need to live like.
I am special in my own unique way,
I am one of a kind,
And I am happy to be what society wants me to be.
I am a song of my own,
A melody that plays on and on,
And never gets old,
I am in a world that I feel exiled in,
But the words that I write,
The words that I live through,
They are my escape.
I wait every day,
For a chance to touch the stars,
To be trapped in the vastness of the universe,
To hold hands with the ones I love,
Where I don’t have to follow rules,
Where I don’t have to hide who I am anymore,
Where I can just breathe…
Where I want to be….
Where you can breathe and be free with me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
There are days when I get sad without a reason and I just stare at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face.

Don’t fall in love with me.
On those days, I don’t talk to anyone. I just bury myself in my bed and think about how I became this mess of sadness.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will become attached to you and I will cry myself to sleep if you don’t text me good night before you go to sleep and I will convince myself that it’s because you got tired of me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m too much. I will depend on you. I need attention, much more than other people. I’ll talk to you in metaphors and make you one. I’ll write poems about you and opening up my skin at 2 A.M.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I couldn’t stand you coming home to find me on the bathroom floor shaking and crying, with blood spilling from my wrists. I couldn’t stand seeing the disappointment in your eyes.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will pour everything I’ve left of me into you, every bit of love, until I have nothing to give. Until I become completely empty.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m scared that my sadness is contagious.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will replay your sweet words in my head when I hate myself so much that I want to die. Your words will be the only thing that make me stay.

Don’t fall in love with me.
You will live in fear. You won’t be able to leave me, because you’d know if you did, I wouldn’t have anything to live for.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Before I met you, there wasn’t a single person who could’ve made me stay. You’re my reason now.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Because I will fall in love with you.

I loved you

I cared for you,
and set you up on a pedestal.
you were beautiful to me,
you were everything I ever wanted,
someone I thought I needed in my life.

you were my crowning jewel,
my heart.
you were someone I knew I didn't need,
someone I knew wasn't good,
but I guess my eyes were seeing someone else,
and the person I thought you was ..
was a horrible lie.

I write for a dream I once had a long time ago,
where I thought things were sweet,
where I thought things were alright...
when really things were starting to crack and rumble,
when things were already falling in my world.
But I didn't realize this until someone opened up this to me,
til I had to go through a lot to be inspired,
to open up.

I write for someone that let me down,
and kept letting me down every time
I thought they were changed.
And knew this,
but I wanted to be proven wrong in my mind,
I wanted to prove that someone like me could be wrong.

But I guess im always right.

I write for this guy I once loved,
and the many women I made love to,
to find out what my taste was.
And what I found out,
is I really don't have one...
I love everyone,
whoever they are.
I feel something for the people I touch,
I change and I know they feel more for me.

I want to everyone to know that I love them,
I care for them even if they hate me.

I write for you as well.
Yes, you that's reading this...
I write just for you .