Trying to forget
someone you loved
is like remembering someone you never met.

We laid there
In silence
I could feel your pain
I could feel your hurt
You called it numb
You were lying
I held you
I watched you
I could see your heartbeat on your neck
It was slow
Mine was fast
I knew what was coming
I knew you couldn't say it
So I asked you
"Is this what you need?"
"What?" You replied
You knew
I knew
We both knew
"I know this is what you want but it is what you need?"
You were honest
You need to take care of yourself
So do I
I understand
It still hurts
But I understand
I got a lump in my throat
My chest got tight
"I don't want to hurt you"
Your sweet words struck right through me
"I'm not mad"
"I get it"
I knew you couldn't say it
That's why I asked
I walk you out
And it's freezing
But I needed that hug
That hug meant so much
You make me go inside because I'm shivering
I don't think it's from the cold
I look back
"Can I kiss you?"
You let me
You drive home
"Hey I'm home"
I'm glad yourself
I'm not
I'm not safe from myself
Everything is blurry
I never expected this
I never expected it to hurt like this

Who knew someone could break your heart in 13 days?

At least I'll win the bet...
I don't wanna win
I want you

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