Here I am
Starring at your shadowy self
Let me see beneath your mask
Your refuge of darkness
I know you are beautiful why do you have to hide

You hide because someone made you
Feel like you had to
Feel like you deserve to
Feel like your not good enough
I am here to say
You don’t have to
You don’t deserve it
You are so much more than good enough

If only I could trade places with you
If I could take you out of you
And show you what I see
You could love yourself
The way I love you

I know
I’m a hypocrite
Here I am
Standing in the shadows
Behind my mask
Taking refuge in the darkness
And no
I won’t ever let you see
Me for me
Cause I hate who I am
And I don’t want to lose you...

God forbid
There are rocks in the river
God forbid
It isn’t crystal clear

The trees aren’t straight
The leaves aren’t symmetrical
The stars aren’t aligned
None of it is perfect

Roads are laid down
Laws are laid out
Stories are drawn up
None of it is perfect

People smile
People lie
People wonder
None of them are perfect

Nothing is perfect
So why do we say
That everything must be
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Smile because you are happy
Smile because you want to
Smile because you don’t know what else to do
Smile because they say it’s pretty
Smile because you don’t want them to know
Smile because you have to hide the pain
Smile because you can’t let them know
Smile because they make you

I’m sorry
I’m not who you think I am
I lie
I’m just trying to protect you
I’m rude
I can’t let anyone to close
You could ask me
To show you the real me
But all you will see is pink and glitter
Because I’m  afraid
Of the darkness inside
I’m so sorry

I don’t think you’ll ever know,
How it feels to be all alone.
Just holding on to anything,
Just to keep these tears at bay.

My shoulders feel heavy
And my chest is tight.
I just want to make it through the night,
Hoping that you don’t see
I’m fighting not to give it.

I don’t know how I got into this,
Been fighting with myself just to hang on,
I know you can’t see what’s killing me...
But never mind, you’ll never know.

My mind is a battle field.
I’m just stood in no-mans land,
Don’t care if I’m hit.
I won’t open up just in case you run
My mind is a dark place, just shutting down...