i sit and i think

turning it over and over in my head

- this one thing rings true;

i'll never make you happy.

good luck finding someone perfect

because i don’t think anyone’s as perfect as you…

Capricorn the sea goat
Equal parts earth and water
Emotions rush over like waves;
quickly they consume like undertow,
dragged into depths of melancholy abyss
Determined, we persevere as if nothing is amiss
Climbing back atop the mountain in spite of such turmoil,
we bury our feelings in the cool dark soil
Though sometimes we get stuck in the mud
so we wait until it turns to clay
Aiming to build solid foundation without delay,
forming structure is our forte
We’re quite resourceful, I must say!
Sure, Saturn’s influence is rough;
repaying karmic debts can make life feel so fatalistic
It's why we can’t help being so tough;
these unexpressed emotions make us want to go ballistic...
Just always remember it’s all humbling at the end of the day
Such lessons are important for doing whatever we may
Really, we wouldn’t have it any other way

I have the tenacity of Aries, and always live in my head
with the insatiable appetites of Taurus; **** do I love bread
I behold the powers of Gemini to be another person instead
and I’m such a Cancer on those days I’d just rather stay at home in bed
I have the heart of the lion like a proud Leo; mess with my loved ones and you’ll surely be dead!
I can be anxious like a Virgo; disarray is something I quite dread
and like a Libra I’m a romantic; though from many a lover I have fled
I’m intense like a Scorpio, **** me off and lightly you must tread…
like a fiery Sagittarius, my passion for life, it burns red!
The sun was in Capricorn when I was born; the sign of a lone wolf, no more about that need be said
Progressive and free spirited like Aquarius, for this I refuse to ever wed
and I've been known to be sensitive like a Pisces; oh the tears I have shed…
Together these archetypes make up who I am, thread by thread…
I am the Zodiac, right down to every drop of blood bled.

Heard all the stories about you told
I hope I'm not being too bold
Inspired by your message I stand
I thought of this by your bedside, holding your hand:
Three years my junior you are wise beyond your years
from you I could learn to get past my fears
You'd say I have to reach my inner conscious
so I'd quit being so gosh **** obnoxious
We'd question things like the meaning of life
or why people endure so much strife
I ponder the truths we'd have found together
if you just braved that dreary weather
You're a true reminder of beauty and compassion
and girl, you can teach anyone a thing or two about fashion
Did I forget to mention we both write with our left hand
and that the ideals of a utopian society I too demand!…?
The forgotten artist within me you so graciously embrace
I can’t imagine having so much pain to face
A vision of us; painting, painting, painting
a picture of a world filled with love and no hating...
How could I not know we have so much in common!
Now, I can just see us bonding over a bowl or two of ramen...
(a favorite food, for which I hear we are both always in the mood!)
Yet you left us all in such a hurry
I’m blinded with tears... my eyes are so blurry
I’ll never know why we had this distance
and why being close was such a resistance
I can only blame my introversion
for making me treat you with aversion
Though you wouldn’t want me to live in regret -
forgiveness was never a thing you’d forget
I hope you’re at peace with the path you chose
this is why on your grave I left this rose
I’ll honor your memory and always be true
and I’ll do it always thinking of you