Time and time again I find myself in the same place,
Thinking about how we never finished the race,
We were almost there, we almost made it through,
It was destroyed overnight. What happened to you?
The sweet boy, with the crystal blue eyes,
Full of love with a frontal disguise,
Somewhere along the way, you got lost,
I tried to steer you back no matter the cost,
The boy I once knew turned into a stranger,
Constantly careless and always in danger,
Now I'm alone with nothing but memories on my mind,
The passion we had was one of a kind,
And on my end, the fire never died down,
All of my friends say that I'm a clown,
But I would give anything in this world to hold you again,
My love, my happiness, you were my best friend,
Sure we fought and we fought hard,
You were the only one who could tear down my guard,
You knew all of the cues and all of the signs,
I need you to come back and read between the lines,
I know that you love her but I love you,
There's no way that she loves you as much as I do,
Do you honestly think she knows you better?
I bet she would never want to be your debtor,
But I'm forever indebted to your heart,
I knew this was it from the start,
I don’t' keep count of all of the pain,
Because I know it's so much better to let it wash out in the rain,
But lately my heart has been so dry,
I'm missing the only thing that gets me high,
My drug, my addiction, my whole life,
I was always supposed to be your wife,
You were pulled right from under my feet,
Now I walk around with a look of defeat,
Love is crazy and painful and a liar,
But if your heart was on sale, I'd be the first buyer.

My mouth can't translate,
The thoughts that are in my head,
But the cuts from your words,
Have stained my sheets red.

Yeah it's that kind of night,
Taking my time to make it right,
Turned off the cell and locked the door,
I can't deal with the thought of you anymore,
Letting my mind wander one last time,
Cause I had to pay the debt for your crime,
You & I, we intertwined,
But I have to erase you out of my mind,
So goodbye for now, Please don't return,
Our love is gone, we have to adjourn.

Have you ever felt trapped with no way out?
As if you’re stuck in the middle of the world’s driest drought?
With no water for hydration or food for survival,
Desperately searching for answers, so you pick up a bible,
And flip through the pages hoping for a sign,
Realizing that a “life-manual” isn’t what God left behind,
He left behind love, acceptance and peace,
Spirits that seem so far out of reach,
These days it feels more yin than yang,
The darkness inside of my heart acts as a boomerang,
I try to throw it far, far away but it always comes back,
Throwing my life off-balance, placing me off track,
Surrounded by people that say they care but don’t understand,
They can’t even see that I am hanging on by a strand,
I guess I’m hanging on to the hope of a better tomorrow,
Even when I wake up the next morning, drenched in sorrow,
I know that one day I will wake up feeling anew,
But today is not that day. I will try to push through.